Random Writings || Vixlemix

"Hunger."

Short Write, Written and Published July 21, 2023.

Growling
Thats all they could hear from their body. the sound of a low growl echoing out from their own stomach. its not like they hadnt eaten, they did, they even forced themself to eat more than their small apetite would allow.
the beast was still not pleased.
it growled and growling, aching no matter what they did.
the brunette tried everything that came to mind,
drinking water, drinking soda, drinking juice,
eating snacks, bread, pizza, any food.
it was no use. The beast was upset when it was empty, but just as upset when it was full.
when empty it hurt until they ate, trying to force up something, but nothing came up as they hadnt eaten yet.
then when they ate, it hurt from being full. agter that, it growled and growled and growled, this time able to force the food up, it sometimes did, othertimes it wouldnt come all the way up.
either way, it always left a bitter taste in the teens mouth.
wether it be a taste of disgust with themself,
or a taste of relief due to not puking,
or a taste of hate for even having to worry about such thing.
its not like they tried to have a small appetite, they just did. it got satisfied too fast, but never satisfied enough to make the pain go away.
they knew they were too thin already, all this puking and pain wasnt helping.
they could see their ribs in the mirror, without even sucking in their stomach.
hell, it sometimes looked like there was barely anything to suck in.
skin, hair, and bone.
thats all they felt like they were.
no proper body fat or muscle,
just dead weight, waiting for someone to notice, to see something was wrong, ask about it, try to help.
They wanted help.
they needed help.
they couldnt get help.
their parents said they were fine.
of course they thought that, they think being this skinny is a good thing.
its not.
they argued with one of their friends before in the past, when they didnt think anything was wrong, and realized their friend was right.
their friend told them they probably had malnutrtion, they didnt wanna agree.
but alas the friend was right, all the symptoms lined up, alongside that, doctors were constantly trying to give them vitamin pills, gummies, whatever they could alongside being suprised at her weight.
despite that, the doctors never spoke a word to their parents about it. no questions, no concerns, those doctors didn't seem like they wanted to be working, but still. they wouldve expected some sort of hint that something was up, but the soctors just decided to assign meds instead.
meds that were never tooken, they were picked up, but quickly lost by the parents, so they were never taken by the teen. the teen was as vitiman deprived as ever.
they dont know how much longer they can actually handle this, they hated the feeling.
they hated it so much.
why, why couldn't they just be healthy and carefree?
whoever looks over this world, clearly musnt have been on the poor things side.