Fictional Love?

Fictional Love?(p.1)

It was a sunny day, birds were chirping,the environment felt fresh,all refreshing.
I woke up realising that today was the end of the week. It felt very wrong and tiresoe somehow! I felt a rush of relief as i realised I don't need to get restless today, Atleast for now!

I was tired, Unable to open my eyes,
I guessed I tortured my eyes just way too much yesterday! I sighed.

The sunrays coming from the small crack of the locked window fell right on my left eye, It sparkled, I could see those coulorful stuffs sparkling their best,dancing all along, Really The dance of rainbows.

My eyes went on the clock, sighing again realising i overslept today.
I read a fantasy romance novel all night yesterday, The novel that I bought jusr yesterday from that neighbouring bookstore, I stayed up all night to read that novel, it was obsessive!

"What if i could go to that world where I actually belonged to?"
A sentence uttered out of my mouth,I didn't even realised it,
"I just feel like that is the place I really belong to,I wish I could go back,ho back to my home?"
"what if there was a bridge which would connect the real world with the fictional world?" My mind was filled with those thoughts,making my eyes go blank,
"What if reincarnation was real?" "those novels where the protagonister reincarnates in her favourite novel?" "I want to experience those too" "I wanna feel the happiness they get too?"
Can't I?
Only if it was possible...

I was imagining about silly things that could never happen in life,It wasn't within my limit at all.
I sighed again thinking that,but this time it was of diseapoinment and something else.

Alse!!! shit... I have to brush my teeth and do those ordinary and boring things I always do.

When I was brushing my teeth half asleep,I saw my face in the mirror.
"Only if this mirror could connect the real world with that fictional world"
saying that my finger tips embraced the mirror,wondering what if I really reincarnate in that world.

But it didn't...

Then, I decided to read it again.
No matter how many times I read it, again and again, I'd never get over it, I believed that.

The each sentence, The each line gave me comfort and feeling butterflies in my stomach.
Specially when he said "i love you"
What if he had said it to me instead of her?
Then again I started to read it out loud,each word,each line,each sentence.
"I'd love you all my life until my last breath,I wanna love you till my death,and more if possible."
"Even if u don't give it back"

Yes,he was that guy who was ignored all of the time, By the the female lead or the readers, everyone!
I dont know how he catched my eyes somehow? Maybe he was special? Or destined?

What if the protagonister was me?Instead of her.
it'd have been too beautiful, A very beautiful experience,I wish I could be her...

At that time I realized it was the last page of the novel, A soft look of diseapoinment formed in my face,
it was page number 488.
as time passed and I reached the last sentence, Another diseapoinment formed both in my mood and mind, trying to calm myself,I read the last line, that was "I hope for your happiness" yes,It was him,The guy everyone ignored, although it was a happy ending,but my heart was aching,my eyes were filled with tears I did not knew if it was tears of happiness or a feeling that says that you're completely helpless?
The ending was supposed to be a happy ending but it didn't felt like that.
If I would've there I'd have comforted him,love him like he did to her, would have give back those feelings to him like he gave his feelings to her.

Only if it was "POSSIBLE"

I ate breakfast,lunch, dinner.

The day felt same as everyday
As I sat on my chair to write my diary,it wasn't a diary it was just a notebook.
I wrote my feelings there what I felt today.i wanted him to see it to badly,I wanted to make him feel that there's somebody who loves you too,I wanted to make him special.
As I was scribbling something there,a drop of tear fell on there I knew I had to stop stop writing to now as it was late now.
I layed on the bed,I closed my eyes,facing the ceiling
It wasn't comfortable enough so I changed position,i grabbed a pillow and hugged it tightly imagining what if it was him instead of this pillow
I didn't realized when I dozed of