Unacceptable (GerIta) (Holocaust) (Boyxboy)

Chapter Twelve

{Half a year later}

I smiled at the local clerk at the towns store, and skipped out, a gigantic grin on my face.

I held the bag of food closely and walked back to my house, throwing open the door happily and shutting it behind me.

"I'm home!" I yelled.

I put the bag down the the table with a small 'thunk' and ran up the stairs, peaking into my brothers old room to see an angel resting in his bed.

Maria, a little German girl I found abandoned in the rain, was asleep blissfully in the bed.

Tears welded in the corners of my eyes as I watched her take short small breaths.

She looked like Ludwig.

She has blond hair and electrifying blue eyes. She has a strong exterior but a soft interior.

Once I found her it brought up memories I wanted to forget.

But I can't.

Its like a broken record player every time I look at her.

Flashes of his dead body. Of the camp. Of our kiss...they all strike me like a bat and knock me down roughly.

I love her like my own, I truly do.

But sometimes its hard to look at her and not remember all that's happened.

Remember that part of his death was my fault. He sacrificed himself for me.

Me.

I didn't get to even show my affection towards him. All I did was kiss him back.

That's it.

Maria sits up slowly and wipes her eyes, looking at me. "Dad?"

I turn, startled and tears run down my cheek.

"Yes sweetie?"

She gets out of bed and pulls me down to her height, and runs her small hand across my cheek, wiping the tears off them and smiles.

"Dont cry."

I nod. I needed to be strong for her.

I smile and pick her up, bringing her downstairs and laughing. "I got more food! Which means a big dinner!"

Maria claps and twirls in a circle, her dress flying up while she creates wind.

I laugh more and watch her, as memories flood my brain, making the happy moment..suddenly sad and dark.

She runs off into the living room as the door bell rings and I sigh softly, answering the door.

Tears flood out of my eyes as strong arms are wrapped around my small, frail body.

I stuff my face into the persons chest and squeeze them back, crying both happily and sadly.

"How?!" I look up at them.

They look back down at me, blond hair falling into his face and his blue eyes sending chills throughout my body.

"I don't know. I guess I wasn't ready to leave you."

I cry more as Ludwig kisses me softly, holding me close and protectivly.

"I won't let go. I won't ever let go. I promise. Never again."

I smile and jump up, wrapping my legs around Ludwig's waist and he carries me inside, shutting the door behind him.

He walks into the living room and I introduce Maria and Ludwig.

They smile at each other and Ludwig sighs softly.

"I've always wanted a family like this. I'm...glad I'm finally getting one like this. Its perfect. So...so perfect."

I laugh, turning into my old self. "It truly is..."

My head slips out of my hand, slamming onto the table as the day dream ends.

I look up, frantically breathing. "Where's Ludwig?!"

It was all my mind. My mind was playing tricks on me. I thought it was real.

A tear runs down my cheek and gleams in the sunlight, as my heart shatters with disappointment.

God I miss him so much.

So...so much...

Maria skips in, smiling. "Dad! There's a big vehicle thing outside!"

My heart stops and I stand up, looking outside the window to see a tank.

I panic and watch as Roderick gets out of the tank, along..with..a man...that looks oddly familiar.... But different.

This man looked meaner, and had a scar on his right cheek.

They stomped over to my door and pounded on it, and suddenly I had never been so scared in my life.

I rush Maria upstairs and go to the door, opening it slowly.

The weird scarred man pushes the door open roughly and pushes me inside, slamming me against a wall and kissing me roughly.

He then pulls away. "Oh. Um..sorry-"

"1, that hurt. 2, who the hell are you?"

He looked down, pulling me close and sets his big hands on my hips. "Ludwig...except.people think I'm dead. And I was for awhile..if it wasn't for Roderick.."

I nod and hug Ludwig tightly, my heart thumping against my chest at the thought that all my wishing and praying had finally come true.