I grab a scalpel and I press against the softness of this skin.
All the imperfections, are long lost now and forgotten.Forever I have been lost drifting away but today I most definitely feel found.
I feel alive..I feel awake..I can feel this pain right here. It reminds me that I'm not really numbed but I walk as a living dead, yes right here I am wide awake.
This pain is pungent, though sardonic and scathing at the same time. This caustic feeling here in my chest is a blistering vehemence that devastates me but excites me at the same time.
This cut is a cut that revives me, it makes me feel resurrected. Like I have been left for a million years resting, and I finally have gotten startled though woken up.
May this feeling forever devour me, and even though it also forsakes me. I want it to forever wake me..
And act upon me as a carpenter making thinner a thicker cup..
May my heart be forever broken instead of living a life of a 'Love' that is forever an aching lie..
-To my heart.
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