Broken 💔

The first warmth of affection

Geralyn's POV

Well, after the event with Sixtus, we became friends. We started talking on table and after two weeks we became close. Have i introduced Sixtus?
Well, Sixtus is the elder brother to Chris. Ohh... Yes u guessed right, he was also the princesses brother and also a final year student and tf... He was my birthday mate too.
I like you. He said. I like you too. I said. No, alyn not that kind of like. I really like you. He said. You do? I said. I want us to be more than friends. He said. Well,  i liked him too so i agreed.
Well... It was a fairy tale for me. He was so nice to me. Every one was so scared of him and here i was infatuated with the bad boy. He would always replace whatever i didn't eat and we were always talking. He was always ready to listen to me and we always had what to say to each other. He felt unreal yet he was real   His letters.... Oh...those letters held a lot of emotions. Whenever i read them,  i melted like a damn candle wax. He was my official first love and i always dreamed of getting married to him one day and as Gloria said, I'm a very Sensitive girl that when u give me a room in your house today,  tomorrow i could give you a mansion if i have it.

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There was this guy i hated, his name was Michael,  i hated him for no reason particularly. He was just so annoying with his behaviours and we don't even converse. You Girls and boys are still too young to be involved in this. If you don't find out the people involved in this before the end of the week,  you will all be in trouble. I know you must be wondering what all this is about. Well, a girl in my class claims she has a secret stalker that has been writing her all sort of letters but how was that my business. Am i gay? Why would i write a letter to a girl. I thought to myself. Who do you think could be behind this? Margaret a classmate of mind asked Vicky,  the girl who was apparently stalked. I don't know. I can't think of anyone but i keeping finding these letters in my bag, my locker and even in the dorm. She said. And you are sure you aren't just trying to get everyone in trouble. I said. Well,  one point to me. I was sassy. Alyn, stop it, she's going through a lot. Margaret said. A lot my foot. I thought to myself.
Well, Classes were no longer interesting,  the only one who made my day interesting was Sixtus.

Hey, there,  i said. You look unhappy,  How was class today? He asked. Well,  we have a bit of a stalker issue and we are all in trouble. I said. A stalker? He asked. Well,  apparently,  one of my friends claimed to be stalked. I said. Ohh. Are you okay though? Sure i am. I'm not the one being stalked. How was your day? I asked. You know nothing is uninteresting without you in. I kept thinking about you all day. He said and i just melted again. I have to go to my Dorm now but see in the cafeteria. I said and he pecked me.

So you and Sixtus huh!!! Bernadine said. I don't get you. I said. What is there not to get. I mean you like Sixtus or you are probably even dating. She said. No... at all. I denied. And it's written all over your face that you like him. Agnes said. You just have to be careful when it comes to guys. Especially guys like him. Bernadine said. Thank you for your advice but i still never said we were dating. I said. She said they are not dating,  let her be though i think Hellen and sixtus still like each other. Promise said. I won't be surprised, they dated for like what? Two years? Gloria said. Three years, they started dating since the end of junior year. Promise said. I feel like they could actually get married. Bernadine said. Why would they get married. People don't just get married because they dated for three years. I said. Why do seem concerned. Anyway, they could because at the beginning of Senior year,  Sixtus got hellen a promise ring to always remind themselves of their undying love. Promise said. And yet they broke up. I said. They just had a little misunderstanding which can be resolved with a conversation. Promised added. Not all things can be resolved with a Conversation. Somethings die the day they end. I said. You seem so worried and disturbed for someone who isn't dating Sixtus. Bernadine said and they all started laughing. Well, I'm not dating him, i said and went to my bed. I could not sleep because no matter how hard i tried, i just could not sleep. I kept thinking,  he didn't tell me he dated Hellen. And here i was feeling like his fuc*in first love when i was not. I'm sure he probably did all the things he is doing for me for her also and even more because they dated for three years. How could he even give a girl a promise ring and still say he likes me. Was he using me to make her jealous or something. What if he was. What if i was just a pun in his game? What if he doesn't actually like me? I was right all along,  it was all too good to be true. I was crying already,  so much for been too Sensitive. I was already so much in his trap. How was i suppose to get out from this ? I thought while crying so hard.

Hey, beautiful,  he greeted me and i didn't say anything. How was your siesta? He asked. Please my Sister says she has something very important to tell me,  can i go sit with her for dinner? I asked. Can it wait till you get back to the Dorm? He asked. It seems pretty urgent and important. I said. You can, then,  i guess I'll see you later. He said with a disappointed look. Why aren't you sitting on your table today? Agnes asked. Well,  nothing,  i just thought to say hello to Chris if he doesn't mind. Of course not,  you are welcome. He said. Thank you,  i said and sat beside him. So how is school treating you? He asked. Well, I'm coping well. I said. I'm sure you've got your sister's brain so there's nothing to worry about academically. He said. I wish i had her brains. I thought to myself but i just smiled acknowledging what he said. How were you guys able to survive it till today? Anytime i think about it, i don't think I'll actually be able to Survive. I said. Well,  I'm pretty sure all of us had that same feeling when we arrived but here we are today. And you are lucky,  at least you have someone helping you start this long journey. Many of us had no one to help us, just a bunch of bully always bullying and frustrating our lives. He said. I'm sure you are not part of those unlucky people. I said. Why? He asked. Well,  you had brothers. I said. Brothers that are like strangers. Brothers who even do worse than some Seniors. He said. Ouch...that's bad. I said. You wouldn't know. He said. But anyway i give you guys a whole lot of respect because i feel anyone who makes it out of here unscratched is going to be tough in society. I said. You are like your sister, a very smart one. He said. Thank you but I'm still nothing compared to her. I said. Humble much huh! He said. I wish it was humility. I said to myself.

*** it's been long i actually visited you. I said to Augustine. More like you've been spending time with Sixtus. He said. It's not that,  i just don't want to come in between Clara and you. I said. If you insist. He said. So can i sit beside you? I asked. Sure you can though i thing Sixtus is going to kill me with his gaze. Then don't look at his side. I said. What happened between you two, i noticed you even sat down with your sister today. He said. Nothing is going on between us. I just had something urgent to tell her, that's all. I said. I have a feeling he doesn't even know why you are angry with him. Augustine said. I'm not angry with him. I feel like it would arouse suspicion if we always sit together. I said. Suspicions like ? He asked. Suspicions that we are actually dating. I said. Aren't you? He said. We are not. We are just good friends. I said. Well, the way he looks at you doesn't seem like how somone looks at their good friend. He said. How does he look at me? I asked. Like if he takes his eyes off you, you would disappear, like there is no one else in this class than you. One can easily tell he likes you though i can tell if you do because you always show no emotions. He said. That's not entirely true. I said. And i think you are just reading deep into everything because it's not like that. I said. I won't argue with you if you aren't even going to confide in me. He said. There is seriously nothing to confide in, if there is, trust me you are always my number one. I said. Anyways, you should seriously talk to him. I do not want to be killed in my sleep tonight. He said. Please stop being sarcastic. I said. So how is things with Clara? I asked. We are fine. He said. I admire you,  you always got her back and respect her no matter what. I said. Well,  that is what love makes you do. He said. We spoke like that till the end of prep. 

Can i pass today. I have a banging headache. I said in Agnes's dorm. No you can't. Headache or not, you are reading. She said. How can you make someone with a banging headache read. That's cruel. I said. Nothing is cruel. I also have a banging headache but I'm reading. She said. Whatever... I said as i opened my book to read. The thing was i couldn't concentrate. No matter how hard i try,  nothing was getting to my head. All i could think of was the fact that i was hurt by his lies. When Agnes noticed i wasn't reading, she just allowed me to go to bed to sleep and i was really thankful but when i got to my bed, i couldn't even sleep. I just kept staring at the celling with nothing on my mind and slowly i drifted to sleep.