The Interview

Chapter 102

"I'll miss you too." i said

We kissed once more.

"Call me when you get home." he said

"I will and you call me when you get to DC."

"I most certainly will." He said

He helped me into the car, gave dodger a scratch on his head and then gave me a kiss goodbye.

Later that afternoon I unpacked and settled in at home. I was heading into the kitchen when I heard the doorbell ring.

"Carly, hi, come on in."

"Chris called and said you were home from your vacation and well AJ told me that we needed to come see her fav auntie." she said

Here we go, time for family to start hovering around me. I just wish I could be alone and I don't know if I should try to heal on my own.

I couldn't believe how big Aj had gotten and it's only been a couple months. Carly passed her over to me.

"Did you Aj, did you tell mommy to come over or did uncle Chris persuade mommy to come over and keep me company.'' I said looking down at this gorgeous little girl cooing at me in my arms.

I couldn't stop smiling but a part of me was dying inside, I would never experience this, I would never get to hold a baby of my own. But I had to come to terms with this.

"So how was the vacation?" Carly asked

"It was amazing, I love going to LA when we have free time." I said.

And it was amazing, except it felt like I was walking on eggshells around my husband.

When we would be in bed it was like we were worlds apart. I just wanted Chris to hold me and tell me things would be ok, but it was like we were two separate people.

"How are you, how have the kids been around AJ."

"Stella has been amazing, she calls Aj her living baby doll, but the boys, they still wish i had a boy." she said

"Well they'll come around just think your gonna have them to protect Stella and Aj from all those nasty boys that come calling."

I just looked down at AJ and she smiled at me. But inside my heart was breaking.

Carly and I spent a couple hours together, AJ was getting tired so she headed home. After Carly left I headed into the living room and sat on the couch, sitting there with AJ, holding her and looking at her round chubby little face and breathing in her fresh smell just made my insides ache.

I could feel the tears stream down my face.

I cried for the family I'll never have, I cried for the future that will never happen and I cried, I cried because my world was shattered and I don't think I can even piece it together.

A couple hours later Chris called me from DC.

"Hello."

"Hey babe, I'm so sorry i didn't call sooner the minute i got here i was rushed into meetings." he said

"It's ok honey, so how have things been."

"Hectic, I've got two more meetings before i can call it a day." he said

"So Carly stopped by."

"She did," he said, acting surprised.

"Nice try Evans, she told me you called her."

"She was never good at keeping a secret. So how was the visit." he

asked.

Yeah and neither are you.