𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐞𝐧 (𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟, 𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟) 𝘢 𝘳𝘫 𝘢𝘶

if u go down, then we go down together

I was at Math class, when I heard so many kids talking about me. Gina was in my math class, so I felt a tiny bit better. "Are the rumours true? Did you...you know?"

"No! I didn't! I would never! I was trying to help him! But no, everybody believes Thiago Martinez! More like Bitchy-ago Martinez!" I exclaimed. I realize people were looking at me, so I quieted down. God, I only have five people in my life right now: EJ, Nini, Jet, Gina and Natalie.

"If you go down, then we go down together"

I wasn't feeling good, mentally. I hate my life more than ever. Everyone hates me, Thiago spreaded a rumor about me, Nini and Jet will hardly talk to me. I just wish all the pain could go away.

"Uh, I'm not feeling well. Can I go home?" I asked. The teacher nodded his head and I walked out of class, with my head down low. I texted EJ.

Eej 💖

hey babe im going home
early 😔😔

what??
why 😥
is it thiago?? cuz I
can punch him in the face :)

lol no 😅
i just dont feel well

okayy hope u feel
better 💜💜💜

ty baby ❤
ilysm do u know that?

ily too ❤
feel better

I turned off my phone and drove home. EJ made me happy, but I don't think I'm making him. I'm not making anybody happy, am I?

"If you hold on, I might just stay forever"

I saw my mom on the couch, watching TV. "What are you doing back home?" she asked.

"I wasn't feeling well." I muttered. Last person I wanna see is her.

"Oh baby, I hope you feel better." she went over to me and gave me a hug. What the fuck was she doing.

"Shut up," I whispered.

"Excuse me?"

"Just drop the act!" I yelled. "You NEVER CARED! NEVER! WHY CARE NOW?

"If you get hurt, I'll try to make you better"

"I'VE ALWAYS CARED, WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?" she spat BACK. I pulled up my sleeve, showing her the cuts on my arm.

"YOU DO THESE!" I rolled up my jeans to show her my cuts on my legs. "AND YOU DID THIS!" And lastly, I rubbed the foundation off my neck, revealing the scar from a few months ago. When I almost died.

"Oh my god, baby-"

"Do NOT CALL ME BABY!" I pushed her away from me, crying. "YOU CALLED ME A FAGGOT AND A BITCH AND YOU SAID I SHOULD GO TO HELL! YOU SAID THIS! IT'S ALL YOU! YOU! YOU!" I cried.

"I'm sorry, baby." she sniffled. "I broke up with Todd a few days ago." Thank god, she did. Todd did this.

"If you go down, then we go down together"

"SO WHAT? SO WHAT?" I walked up to her face, angry and upset. "I'm never talking to you, ever again. I'm packing my bags and I'm moving in with Nini."

"RICHARD BOWEN, YOU CAN NOT WALK AWAY FROM YOUR MOTHER!"

"YOU AREN'T MY MOTHER, FUCK YOU! I'M TAKING NATALIE!" I yelled. Fuck Lynne Bowen. She isn't my mom. I hate her so fucking much. Nini and her family is like my family. I'll ask Nini's parents if I can stay, but I need to get far away from her.

Nini 😊

Nini
can i pls stay at ur house
my mom and i fought and
that wad my last straw
pls nini i have no where to
go :(

ricky idk i have to ask my mom

pls ask
nini im like homeless now
I dont have anyone

ej???

homophobic dad

jet???
oh yeah, family issues
i forgot 😭😭
well i asked my mom and
she said yes!!!

OMFG RLLY??
TY NINI ILY AS A FRIEND
BUT I STILL LOVE U

LOL ILYT

I turned off my phone and drove to Nini's house. I knocked on her door, and she opened up. "Hey Ricky, are you okay?" I dug my head into her shoulder, as I stood there, crying in front of my friend. "It's gonna be okay. Everything will be okay."

"If you go down, then we go down together..."