𝕡𝕖𝕣𝕤𝕦𝕒𝕤𝕚𝕧𝕖 / 𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕟𝕘𝕝𝕚𝕩

🆃🆆🅴🅽🆃🆈-🆃🆆🅾: 𝕤𝕔𝕒𝕣𝕤 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕤𝕒𝕕𝕟𝕖𝕤𝕤

~ 𝕗𝕖𝕝𝕚𝕩 𝕡𝕠𝕧 ~ ╰(*°▽°*)╯ (unedited)  ⚠️TALKS ABT SELF HARM IN THIS CHAP⚠️

some time has gone past and we've just been watching this show, making a few comments here and there. i was starting to get bored or- maybe needy and wanting attention would be the right way to put it. ugh, when did i become like this...i used to be so independent and knowing that i didn't need a guy for my happiness but something about him being around made me a whole lot happier. did i like it? i don't know but there's no way in hell i'd push him away now even if he's doing that to me. 

i looked over at him who had his gaze fixated on the laptop screen. our shoulders were touching but it wasn't even like we were doing anything. no cuddles :( and cuddles is what i wanted. i mean...me and hannie are friends, bestfriends and i cuddle with him all the time. doesn't mean that it means anything. 

fed up with the distance, i decided to wrap my arm over his stomach and rest my head on side of his arm- getting closer to him to see what his reaction was. 

nothing. 

i then decided to wrap my arms around his neck and rest my head on his shoulder.

nothing.

*sigh* there was only one choice left. i didn't want it to have to come to this but i had to get some type of attention somehow. i got up and plopped my butt down on his lap and i pulled the blankets back over us and i laid my head on his chest, grabbing his hands so that i could hold them. 

score.

he held my hands tighter and shifted on the couch so that we could get more comfortable. he rested his chin on my head and i could feel his breathing picking up. a smirk appeared on my face.

"changbin-ah why do you still have your coat on, it feels fine in here since i brought the heater in." i pouted at him.

"i'm fine" he mumbled. ugh, this is going nowhere.

i pulled the blankets off of us, paused the show, and got up to pull his coat off of him which he refused.

"felix, i said i'm fine" he tried to pull me off of him so i started tickling his neck, earning laughs leaving his mouth and eventually he gave in and i slipped off his coat.

"see that wasn't that bad was it?" i questioned as i went to sit back down on the couch- well more like on him. i decided to straddle his lap but i didn't want to be on my knees so i told him to turn to the side so that i could stick out my legs- earning myself to be even more on his crotch. 

i wrapped my arms around his neck and placed a light kiss of his nose which he scrunched up.

"what was that for?" he asked glaring at me.

"just because" i smiled.

he looked at the laptop, "so are we not watching the show anymore?"

"we can finish the rest a different day" i turned to place the blankets back on us.

he scoffed "how do you know there's gonna be a different day?" ugh, his questions annoyed me sometimes.

i rolled my eyes "there will" a smirk appeared on my face as i leaned in to give him an eskimo kiss. 

he wrapped his arms around my back "oh yeah?"

i started to fiddle with the golden lock chain he had on his neck. "yes" 

i leaned back in this time going towards the side of his jawline and i started leaving wet kisses on him which he reacted my drawing his nails into my back. 

"felix, stop" he kept the same pressure of his nails on my back that i had no choice but to stop. i looked back up at him confused to see he had a stern look on his face. f*ck what does he even want at this point?
"why? is this not what....you want?" i questioned not understanding.