"Mom, ! "I yelled out.
I made my way to her room to see her silently crying to her self.
I slowly approached her.
"I just don't understand Mija , " she said.
I sat there in silence and just stared at her. I hated myself for disappointing her. She did everything in her power to raise us right, and all she expected from me and my brothers to go to school and make something out of our self. Now look at us. One's dead, ones out on the streets somewhere and then there's me , pregnant at 18.
"Mom, I would never intentionally hurt you." I said holding back tears.
"I know. And I'm sorry for speaking to you the way I did.. I just can't wrap my head around all this" she said.
I wiped my tears And continue to listen.
"Ori, how did this even happen.. He's 24 for gods sake" she said.
"I-I don't know... I was vulnerable.. It just happened." I said as my voice cracked.
She just sighed before touching my stomach.
"It's already hard" she slightly laughed , wiping her tears.
I don't know how I didn't notice it"'I gently smiled back.
She continued to wipe her tears before speaking .
"Look, Ori I'm not going to lie , raising a child isn't easy. Trust me raised 3 alone" she said.
That's something I I didn't want to go through. I honestly don't know how in going to tell him.
"Have you told him yet" my mom asked.
I swear she can read my mind.
"No, "I stuttered.
She sighed heavily.
"As much as I don't like him right now , it's not right to keep that man away from his child " she explained.
"Mom, I'm scared. What if he doesn't want anything to do with the child" I asked.
"You'll never know whether or not he does if you don't tell him. I recommend you tell him sooner than later " she said
"Your right. I think I'm going to do it tonight" I said.
"Whatever you want Mija " she said hugging me .
I stumbled a bit while getting up to go call Nya.
"Watch it now, my grand baby is in there" my mother smiled.
I laughed a bit before heading to my room.
I dialed Nya's number.
"Hey Ori " she said .
"Hey" I replied
"What's up, my niece alright" she said.
"Niece?" I asked.
"I just got a feeling" she responded .
I smiled at that.
"Look , I called to get Maleek's number . I think I should tell him tonight" I said.
There was a long pause before she spoke.
"Of course, I'll text you it" she responded.
Within minutes I received his number and I texted him.
After explaining to him that I needed to talk to him, he told me he'll pick me up tonight .
I put my phone down and went to my bed.
I figured I'd take a nap before he came and got me. And that's exactly what I did.
The last thoughts before drifting off to sleep was on how he was going to react.