Chapter 34: Giving up is cowardly too bad I don't care

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*WARNING* There is going to be a little drug use in this chapter, just thought I'd warn you guys. Also I know that people don't get high that quickly but it would have taken me ages to explain it all and I'm just guessing cos I've never actually been in Katy's position :D

"Don't" Reed said sharply just as I was about to take the ecstasy pill. The yellow colored pill with a kiss printed on it froze halfway to my mouth. I stopped "Who told you?" already knowing who it was.

"Cass. Katy what are you doing?"

"Taking my dog for a walk, what does it look like I'm doing?" feeling hollow, my heart thudding slowly, painfully. So much so that I wanted it to just stop beating all together.

He sat across from me "We're still in school, what is it?"

"What do you care? I'm not your girlfriend anymore" I said resentful as my fingers played with the vodka bottle I'd brought with me which he took away; I was too disheartened to snatch it back.

"What is it?" he asked again, there was no point in lying cos I was pretty sure Cass had told him everything.


"Who did you get it from?"

"You sound like my mom" I said trying to distract him even though it wouldn't work. Reed knew me, well the old me anyway and knew when I was trying to distract him.

"Tell me" his tone so hard and brittle you could cut with it.

"A friend."

"Which friend?"

"You don't know him"

"Him?" I couldn't detect any jealousy, just annoyance in his voice which was also particularly deep right now.

"Yeah him. Leave" I said firmly. Of course I didn't want him to go but I was still hurt and I wanted to hurt him as much as much as he'd hurt me.

"Not until you give me the pill" he said, meeting my level gaze with one of his own.

I didn't answer, instead I thought carefully about the many reasons why he'd be here. He could have just left me but he hadn't.

"Are you doing this to spite me?" he asked, his green eyes still studying mine with that thoughtful expression he sometimes gave me.

I pretended to scoff, "Please"

"Katy give it to me"

I turned it over between my index finger and thumb, pretend studying it just to irritate him.

"Why should I give it to you?"

"You don't know exactly what it is"

"I like surprises" I said sarcastically, he gave me a dry look.

"No you don't"

"What are you doing here Reed?"

"I came to stop you"

"I'm still gonna take it so you might as well leave. Your girlfriend will be looking for you"

That was painful to say but I managed it without breaking down.

"For the hundredth time, Jade is not or ever will be my girlfriend. Not that it's any of your business anyway"

That stung and I took a moment to compose myself, "But some other girl will and I don't think I could stand it if you started dating someone"

"We've broken up now so we're gonna have to move on sometime"

"I don't want to move on"

"I'm not here to talk about our previous relationship" he put emphasis in the word previous, making my depression worse.

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