NOT PROOF READ!
song of the chapter : me and my husband - mitski (ITS JUST WHAT IS PLAYING RN SO WHY NOT :D)
I dont think theres any different trigger warnings :)
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tommys pov:
we've decided to just relax today, which i'm very happy about cause I just wanted to lay in bed today, and thats pretty much all I plan on doing, i'm laying in my bed and scrolling on my phone.
*KNOCK* I flinch at the sudden noise coming from my surroundings,
"tommy!" I hear wilbur say from the other side of the door.
"ayup wil!" I reply
"may I come in?" he asks
"yup." I say, as he walks inside my room.
"Phil, Techno and me were planning on binging a series of movies? Want to join? We were just about to go to the store and get snacks." I know I said I was going to lay in bed all day, but who can say no to that!?
"fuck yeah!" I reply, hopping out of bed.
*IN THE CAR CAUSE IM TO LAZY TO WRITE DETAILS *
"what series are we watching?" I ask .
"The 'scream series' up to the 5th"
"BUT THERE SCARY!" I raise my voice more than I intended to.
"sorry..." I mutter, no one but wilbur hears me since he's right next to me in the back seats. Phil chuckles at me thinking those movies are scary.
"brUuUh... There not that scaryYyYy." Techno replies.
"whatever you say big man." I reply.
*at the store*
Since im a child, I do what every child's dream is. I grab a basket and run to the candy aisle, I fill my basket with, drinks, gummys, chips, and snacks.
Your going to get so fat.
yeah mate i know just shut up for today i'll throw it up or punish myself later, its my cheat day, let me get away with it this once.
Surprisingly they didnt say anything after that. I went back to wilbur and everyone who each had maybe 1 or 2 snacks and a drink, whilst I have a basket.
"WHAT THE FUCK!" philza says as he sprints over to me. Techno , wilbur and phil are laughing.
"dont worry... Uh we'll all share but your still paying." I say laughing.
The rest of the night we watched the movies. I only purged the snacks twice, Wilbur caught on, and wouldn't let me go to the bathroom, so I guess i'll just have to punish myself in a different way when I get to my room.
*IN TOMMAYS ROOM*
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after we were done watching all the movies, I walked back to my room telling them goodnight so they would think im sleeping, I grab a razor and go to the bathroom, and like normal I roll up my sleeve and press the razor to my skin and it soon is repeatedly sliding across my arm leaving barely any space where you can see my actual arm, since its covered in blood. I put my arm under the water, and hiss at the pain. It's fine... As long as I get punished for eating so god damn much. I grab bandages that are under the sink and wrap my arm up, and put my sleeve back down, I walk back to my room and flop on my bed and a few hours later falling asleep. I found that weird cause I feel so tired, but yet it's hard to sleep...
It's fine only a few more days till im free.
:) I hope you enjoyed! ILL UPLOAD MAYBE TOMORROW OR I MIGHT GET IN ANOTHER CHAPTER TODAY WE'LL SEE!!!! BUT EXPECT AT LEAST A CHAPTER EVERY 1-2 DAYS.
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I give up. |Tommyinnit angst|
Fanfictionthis book was meant to be me just giving up on writing but yk I had to turn it into a book lmao !TW!//SH/ED/ABUSE/ANXIETY/OVERTHINKING/PANIC ATTACKS/SELF HATRED/SWEARING/VOMITING/SUICIDAL THOUGHTS// THERE WON'T BE A WARNING AT THE TOP OF EACH PAGE...
