Wrong send

CHAPTER TWELVE - "i pushed it all away."

A week after. I had realized I let him ruin me. I let him hurt me, I let it bother me.

I let it bother me so much that dark bags grew underneath my eyes from not sleeping, I let it bother me so much that I lost 5 pounds from not eating.

I let it bother me so much that my shampoo bottle is running dry while waiting for me. Acne grew on my face from not eating and sleeping.

I crawled out of bed in my depressing room and went into the bathroom. I didn't feel like taking a shower.

So instead, I put on perfume and dry shampoo, the last time I showered was 3 days ago. I only got in there to wash the depression off.

I brushed my knotty hair and my teeth. I wet my face with warm water and rubbed some cleanser on my face slowly.

I dabbed my wet face with a towel, then grabbed ice and iced it underneath my eyes to make them look less puffy.

I put on a black laced spaghetti strap and a dark chive colored cargos with a belt and high rise converse.

I went out to my car and started it.

I put my earbuds in and played 'Romantic Homocide', By D4vd. Fuck Atticus as my heroine. My real Heroine is music. Music has helped me through a lot.

I have a variety of songs too, so whatever artist or band I listen to depends on my mood.

I arrived at my shop. I walked in slowly.

"Oh my God, Iris..I haven't seen you in forever!" She ran over to me. "I'm really sorry I ghosted you like that. I was going through some stuff." I told her.

"What? What's wrong?" She asked as we both sat down. "I pushed Atticus away." I told her. "What? What do you mean?"

"He cheated on me. With, Sofia. He's been calling and texting begging to talk to me about it, I can't even look at him anymore." I said as my voice grew shaky.

She sighed and covered her mouth. "I'm so so sorry Iris." She pulled me into a hug. Her grasp was tight and comforting.

"Listen, as his best friend..I'm telling you to forgive him. But my heart is telling me, that as a person. If you do forgive him. I'll never talk to you again." She laughed.

I laughed as tears rolled down my cheek. She put her hand on top of mine. "Thank you." I smiled.

She wiped my tears, her cold hands touched my cheeks sending chills down my spine. "I know what'll cheer you up." She paused.

"What?" I asked gently. "Let's go to a flower field. Let's go pick flowers." She smiled. She stood up and took my hand.

"Alright." I smiled.

Time jump!! 5:00 pm

The place she took me to, had mountains. It had fences with animals in them. Cows and some horses. There were tulips, daisys roses, and magnolias.

Hell, maybe even more.

In that moment, I had realized that I loved Willow more then I could love anyone else. Shit Maybe she was my heroine.

We jumped over the fence, "Come here." She said, she brought me to a part of the field. It had trees, and bushes with flowers on it.

There was bunnies and horses close to there too. She sat me down on the grass, we looked at the sun set.