i feel fine

the bag

they woke up in the morning. they were hugging each other. Paul woke up first and looked around. his clothes lay next to the bed. Johns as well. Paul didnt want to wake up John so he just slowly and quietly put his clothes on. but it woke up John. "hi Paul." Paul jumped and turned to him. "eh hi John..." he sat on the bed. "what now?" John asked. Paul wanted to know that too but he just couldnt know. "i dunno. maybe we should wait. i cant remember anything from the last night." Paul looked forward. "huh me too." John smiled nervously. "i think i should go." Paul stood up and went outside.

he walked around some alleys. his mind was full of thoughts. he felt like his brain gonna explode. does he want John? he put his hands in his pockets and felt the bag. he took it out and saw one pill. "no this is not a good idea." he thought. but his mind was so full. he needed to ventil it all out. he sat on the bench. he was playing with the bag in his hand, wondering if he should take it or not. "just one. what can happen." he took the pill and looked closer on it. then he swallowed it without a second thought. he stood up and went around. his legs started to got more weak. he couldnt walk. his body fell to the ground. some old lady walked around. she said something germany. Paul sat on the ground and just said. "im okay madam." then he stood up and walked to his room.

John wasnt there anymore. he looked around if he didnt stole his drugs. luckily he didnt. they were on the same place like yesterday. "maybe i should go to lads." he whispered. hid his drugs and walked to the next room. "hello Paul. are you okay?" Ringo looked at Paul. "heh yeah im fine." Paul smiled a little bit too much. "are you high?" George looked closer to him. "why is everybody askin." Paul smiled more. "can i come in? my room is too small, y'know what i mean." wink at them. "yeah come in." George said confused.

Paul sat on the chair and put his hands under legs. he looked like a child. he looked around the room and didnt see any guitars or drums. his mind was confused. where the hell it was. suddenly he was full of anger. "where is it?!" his voice was loud. lads looked really confused, cause Paul wasnt like this very usual. "what are you talking about?" George raised an eyebrow. "guitars, drums and.." he stopped, looked at them like they killed someone. he stood up and came closer to George. "you've stolen my bass, havent you?!" poked him in the ribs with a finger. "what? what the hell are you talking about. i didnt steal anything." George looked really surprised. "yeah? where is it then?" his face was flushed with anger that were unnecessary. "we always leave them by the stage after the performance. we haven't gone to get them yet. what is wrong with you?" Paul took a good two steps back and just looked long into George's eyes. then he ran out of the room. "Paul was really weird. what happened to him?" George looked to Ringo. "maybe he was really high." meanwhile he lit his cigarette. "we should find him." "okay."

John bought beer and went to a walk. lit his cigarette and drank beer. he was sad because, John thought Paul would like him but he wasnt right. what will he do? he sat on the grass, played with a beer and smoking his cigie. than he felt tap on his shoulder. he looked around and saw Paul. "what are you doing here?" John asked. he saw hows Paul happy and that made him happier. then Paul grabbed his chin and kissed him. it was beatiful kiss. Paul sat next to him, still kissing John. then John realized someone could see them. "Paul stop someone can see us." he smiled. "oh sorry Johnny boy." Paul laughed. "i was thinking about it and i really like you too!" John stood up and smiled at him, grabbed his hand and ran with him. "what are you doing?" "im just so happy Paul you cant imagine that happiness!"

when they thought that nobody can see them, John grabbed Pauls hand and kissed him. Paul stroke his hair and put his arm around his hips. suddenly they heard "what the fuck." behind themselves. they quickly let go and took two steps away from each other. "uhm hi lads." John said akward. "what the fuck guys. your queers?" George said. "maybe? i dunno. its just we liked eachother." Paul said sadly. they didnt expected this reaction. "i knew it." Ringo said. "i knew it all the time that you two will be together one day." he smiled. George in disbelief looked at him. "i didnt." he looked at the ground and left.