[TRIGGER WARNING FOR THIS CHAPTER - su!c!de]
Descriptions:
Aromantic
Suicidal with multiple failed attempts
Found amazing friends and family online
Name: -
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I'm 16 years old and life is... bad.I guess that is the word I'm looking for.
It used to be worse, though. Before the internet. It kind of saved me. Well, almost. It saved me some time because I'm still sure I want to leave this world for good.
I've tried, believe me. But by some miracle, I've always survived. It's a torment but my 'family', well, friends, online always seem relieved to know I'm alive and... as well as I can be.
I've thought about not leaving - staying. Just for them. But after going through so much I fear I would need more than friends to convince me to stay.
Love, maybe.
But then again, I know I'll never feel love. I used to think I just hadn't found 'the one'. Now I've accepted the fact that I'm aromantic and going to be lonely for a lifetime. As short as that time may be.
Call me selfish but I hope my friends miss me. Cry about me, maybe. Care. But, like, not too much. I don't want them to be hurt and still, I know I will be the cause of that pain.
There's no escape from pain in this life, hmm? No escape. Not unless you throw it all away.
...
Or is there an escape? One I don't know of?
Whatever. It's too late now.
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I am in now way encouraging leaving this world, it was just one of the topics. Live.
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