Love vs. Lust

Chapter 40

I woke up wrapped in Cole’s arms and smiled to myself. I felt happy for the first time in a long time. Now don’t get me wrong, I knew that I still had a lot of problems and that everything wasn’t just going to miraculously be ok from now on but I had hope. I felt safe and loved in his arms and that is what I needed the most at the moment. I didn’t want to feel alone anymore.

I rolled over in his arms so that I could look at him. He was lying so still that I thought he was still asleep but when I looked at his face his eyes were open and he had a smile on his face. He looked really happy.

“Morning,” he whispered softly as he lifted his hand to my face and gently brushed my hair out of my eyes.

“Morning,” I replied, blushing slightly.

“How are you feeling?” he asked. Maybe he was worried that I would still be upset after the dream I had last night or maybe he was wondering if I regretted what we had done.

“I’m fine,” I answered, trying to reassure him.

“So you’re not going to kick me out of your bed and hate me for the rest of your life?” Cole questioned, jokingly. I could tell that he was trying to keep the conversation light but that he was really worried about how I was feeling and going to react.

“No I’m not, I think I like you in my bed,” I said teasingly. His eyes lit up as I spoke the words and before I could say anything more his lips crashed down on mine. I kissed him back as thrills of pleasure from his touch raced through my body.

It was early when we woke up but we only got out of bed at around two in the afternoon. My body was aching from all the exercise but I was feeling really good. I got some clothes out of my cupboard and then headed to the bathroom to take a long hot shower. I was barely inside the shower when I heard the door opening. I smiled to myself thinking of what was going to happen next. I heard some scuffling noises and then the shower door slightly opened.

“Can I come in?” Cole asked, his voice husky and sexy.

“Yeah,” I answered in anticipation. He got in with me and I watched as he was drenched with water. His hair plastered to his face as the water glistened over his tanned body.

“Your hot,” I breathed. I didn’t really mean to say it out loud but it slipped out before I could stop myself. Cole looked at me as his lips turned up into a grin, letting me know that he liked that I thought so.

The shower took a lot longer then I was anticipating but I was really enjoying myself so I didn’t mind. When we eventually managed to get dressed we went to the kitchen and I made us some lunch. Cole’s phone rang while I was busy and he headed to Conner’s room to get it. He returned a few minutes later looking really happy about something.

“Who was it?” I asked, curiously.

“Conner, he’s coming down to visit you this weekend,” Cole answered.

“Seriously?’ I questioned, feeling myself getting excited. I’ve really missed Conner, we’ve always been close and it was weird not having him around all the time.

“Yeah, he misses you, but his too much of an ass to admit it,” Cole replied.

Knowing that I was going to see Conner put me in an even better mood. Thoughts about Gordon and my dream from last night kept on popping up in my head but I did my best to push them aside. It’s not that I wanted to forget them I just wanted to enjoy myself for one day, but it didn’t last. By the time night came I was feeling horribly guilty about sleeping with Cole. I didn’t regret it and I didn’t want to push him away but it felt like being with him was cheating on Gordon.

“What’s wrong?” Cole asked, sitting down on the couch next to me with a bowl of popcorn in his hands. We were just going to stay in and watch movies which were perfectly fine with me since my good mood from this morning had disappeared.

“I just wish I could remember,” I replied, not sure if I should tell Cole how I was really feeling.

Love vs. LustRead this story for FREE!