Mine (NueaToh FF)

Van Gough who?

Toh's POV

"I like you" p' Nuea said it again.

I sighed

I really tried my best to prevent him from kissing me again. Since his pictorials.

"P' thank you for helping me today na" I said.

He looked at me.
His eyes are teary.

I was to get of the car
But his eyes looks like he wanna cry

Then I closed the door and face him.
I wipe the tears

"Do you not like me?" He asked.
I gulped.

"Can you please like even if a little." He said.

"P' Nuea" I said.
I moved closer and kiss his cheeks.

Fine I'll be here while your Van Gough is not here. And I will be gone when he is back on your side.

I cupped his face with bother my hands. He removed his seatbelt and kissed me.
I responded the way he wanted.

He thought me how to kiss. Now he must earn the result.

His hands moves to my back.

Stop p' we are in front of my dorm.

I pushed him a bit.

"P' enough na" I said.

He leaned his forehead on mine.
He grasp for air.

"Be mine only." He said.

Would I be your second option? I asked myself.
Then I will take everything I can while I am here.
And I will still live you form a far.

I leaned a bit closer and kiss him. He responded. But his lips leave mine and moved to my neck.

"P'." I protested and moved away a bit.

He realized something like he woke up from a dream.

"Toh" he panicked.

So he might have thought it's Van Gough and not me.
He looked guilty.

Now it's my time to cry.
But I hold it all up.

Is it me Toh he is kissing?
Or Van Gough?

I arranged my eyeglasses and self. I was to get off. But he hold my hand and pulled me for a hug.

"Toh. It's you I like" he said.
Is he convincing me or convincing himself.

It does not matter anymore.

"P' you should go back na " I said.

He let go of me.
I pecked on his lips and moved fast.

I waiid facing him when I get off the car

I run fast back to my room.

I can't hold it anymore.

I cried hard

This is the prize of secret crush. Secret love. Getting hurt most of the time.
But have his kisses and that is beyond what I deserve.
His hugs. And that is my great prize.
And him saying he like me is enough.
If only I can record those things.

I cried.
Till I pass out.

I wake up.

And it's morning

Damn I forget to shower last night.
Eww.

I run to have a bath. I have 15 minutes to be soaked on a nice hot bath.