I didn't ask for these feelings. These feelings that feels so strange, foreign, and wrong, but also so right at the same time. The feelings that I so desperately try to hide, to bottle up, for fear of messing things up. I didn't mean to fall in love with my best friend. I didn't mean to fall in love with Scott...
"Well what do you expect me to do Danny, it's not exactly like I can tell him" I groaned, fiddling with my pencil in my fingers.
"Yes you can, and you will" he insisted, looking up from his text book for the fifth time during our study time. Danny was assigned to tutor me in Chemistry and somehow along the way, he'd pulled the truth about my feelings for Scott right out of me.
"Very funny" I stated with a glare, shoving my textbook off of my lap, unable to focus at all at this point.
"I'm serious Stiles, you'd be surprised how much better it feels to get it off your chest" he insisted "what'd you get for question seven?" I let my eyes scan the paper sitting a foot away from me on the bed.
"I got Zinc?" I offered with uncertainty ringing clear in my voice.
"That's actually correct" he smiled at me softly "and what do you have to fear Stiles, Scott's your best friend. Even if he doesn't feel the same way, it's not like he'll hate you. Trust me, it sucks to keep secrets from your friends, especially one like this."
"But I don't even know, like, what if I'm just confused" I offered "I mean, maybe these feelings will just fade away after a while and every thing will go back to normal."
"And what if you're not? What if you're not confused Stiles, and these feelings never go away? Do you just plan on avoiding and distracting yourself from these feelings all your life?" he prodded and I sigh as I laid back on my bed.
"I don't know Danny, I've never been in a situation like this before" I sighed in frustration "I mean I know Scott could never hate me for this but..." I trailed off not knowing what to say.
"But what Stiles? What's the worst that happens? Scott says that he doesn't like you that way and you move on with your love life? It's not the end of the world and you'd be lifting a lot of tension off of your shoulders" he argued.
"Maybe he won't hate me, but nothing will ever be the same!" I snapped at him "once I say it, it's official and I can't take it back. Everything will change! And if Scott doesn't hate me for that, that doesn't stop me from hating myself!" I let my posture fall and I buried my face in my hands. Danny stayed silent for a few minutes, probably not knowing how to respond.
"Hate yourself?" he questioned in a soft whisper "Stiles you can't hate yourself for something that you have no control over. So you fell in love with your best friend? There are worse things you could do in your life? If that's the worst thing you ever do then I'd say you're doing pretty well."
I sat there, staring at my hands as I let Danny's words sink in. Danny stayed silent, waiting for an answer as if he could sense that I needed a minute.
"I'm just scared..." I finally breathed. There was a long pause before I continued.
"Because I don't know what I'll do if he doesn't feel the same way. It scares the hell out of me" I whispered. It was at that point that my phone began to ring and I looked down to see Scott's name and picture flashing on the caller ID.
"Well I guess, you'll never know if you don't answer" he stated softly as he stood up grabbing his things "I have to get home, but a last word of advice. Have a little faith Stilinski." I watched his figure leave my room before I slowly picked up my phone, clicked answer and held it up to my ear.
"Hey Scott" I greeted, hiding the nervousness in my voice.
"Hey Stiles, I was just" but then Scott stopped himself "are you okay? You sound upset." I smiled, it was always like Scott to see past all my acts, even over the phone.
"Yeah, I'm fine. Just tired" I assured him.
"You sure?" he quizzed "you know you can talk to me, right man?"
"Yeah, of course Scott. I'm just a bit stress with my Chem work is all" I stated, which wasn't exactly a lie.
"Well, I was thinking about coming to you're place for some movies tonight, but maybe I can help you out a bit when I get there? I can bring pizza" he offered and I laughed lightly.
"That sounds sweet, I'll see you then" I grinned from ear to ear.
Scott had ended up getting to my place an hour later and helped out with the last of my Chemistry homework, before we started on a movie marathon. We were on our third movie at this point, which actually happened to be the Avengers.
I was sitting by Scott on the small couch in the living room, our shoulders brushing every so often. I couldn't help the small shivers of nerves it sent through my body.
"You cold?" Scott asked curiously, breaking me from my thoughts. I blinked a few times, being caught off guard.
"Uh, just a bit. Not a big deal" I mumbled, but Scott ignored my last comment as he grabbed a blanket off of the back of the couch and laid it on both of us. I noticed with a small smile, as Scott moved his body closer to mine to fit us both under the blanket.
"Thanks" I murmured, as I forced my attention back on the movie. It was getting to the part where the hulk was slamming Loki into the ground and I couldn't help but burst out with laughter. That has always been my favorite part of the movie. I felt the hum of Scott's laughter beside and with out thinking I scooted closer, tucking myself into his side, resting my head on his shoulders. I couldn't help the grin that rose on my face as the arm that he'd been resting on the back of the couch, slid down and rested around my shoulders.
I thought back to what Danny had been saying earlier. About how it would be nice to get this crush out in the open, despite that it might be a little awkward at first, if he doesn't feel the same way. I could almost hear his voice in my head.
"Have a little faith" I whispered to myself what Danny had said earlier.
"What was that?" Scott asked, turning away from the movie to look at me and I cast my gaze down at me lap.
"Scott..." I trailed off as I thought about my words softly "would you.... I mean, do you think...." I could seem to say it and Scott just sat there patiently waiting for me to work through it.
"It's just that..." I sighed with a grunt of frustration. I just couldn't seem to get the words past my lips.
"Stiles, do you have a crush on me?" Scott suddenly asked out of the blue and I froze slightly at his words.
"Do I... what? How did you?" I started to sputtered but before I could say anything more, Scott lowered his lips onto mine. I felt the softness of his finger tips caressing my cheeks and his lips gentle on mine before he slowly pulled away.
"Because if you don't have a crush on me, then this is probably a bit awkward" he continued in a soft voice, but I quickly shot forward pressing my lips back against his before he could say anything more. Danny was right. I should've just been honest with Scott from the get go.
"I like you Scott" I whispered softly as we parted from the kiss. I watched as a small smile graced his lips.
"That's great, because I like you too Stiles"
Hey guys, so there's another one shot! I hope you all enjoyed and I'll try and update again soon. Thanks for reading! ^_^
P.S. I thought about being a troll and putting "and then Stiles wakes up" at the end, but I'm not that mean, haha. Thanks for reading guys. You're the best! :)