A Mutually-Assured Attachment ✔️

Part 45

"No-o, move-e." You whimpered while crying but never once dared to look him in the eyes.

In spite of the fact that you were not taking a glimpse at him, he seethed so exceptionally hard as you disobeyed him, his cold breath could be felt hitting your neck.

He snatched your jaw, making you face him, yet you closed your eyes. You take in a full breath prior to opening them back and taking a look at him in the eyes.

"How could you say yes after all I've done for you, after all we did together, after you've got my hopes up...how could you, Y/N?"

It was difficult to believe that the man who had been growling and punching the wall earlier in the conversation still had this sweet tone. He was moved to tears and you were too, by how tender and heartbreaking it was.

"I told you...I said I was gonna propose to you," he murmurs, a plaintive cry breaking through his clouded, meek voice. "Then how could you betray me like that?!" His habitually melodious voice precipitously turned growly, and he cried while puckering his teeth.

"I have to move on Jungkook, you don't understand," you close your eyes and exhale a tear. "And it seems like you've moved on too." You recalled how he was acting so charmingly romantic with Yuna on their engagement.

"You can't move on with someone you've cheated on, Y/N." He bitterly scoffs, sniffing.

"I didn't cheat, you lured me into doing it!" You smack his chest as you throw him a nasty look. "You're a manipulator."

"Don't blame me now, you cheated," he applied more pressure onto your body. Your back felt crushed against the wall. "Then, why'd you say yes to him?"

"Because I love him!" You abruptly scream, shoving him away as annoyance flares up inside of you. You loathe being trapped between him and the wall.

"So all this time you were just using me? You never loved me? You hated me?" His heart began to pound with an electric rush of misery.

"I don't hate you! I just hated the ways you would control me without giving me any freedom in the relationship!"

"Well, I was willing to change for you!" His breath hitched over a sob.

"I wanted to give you the world, Y/N!"

There is a protracted silent interval.

"I know my ways of treating you were wrong, the way I would control you was wrong, I know I had no right! And I know both of us should've had an equal voice in our relationship but I didn't give you that right and I regret it, Y/N! I know I fucked up but but I'm a human too! I make mistakes too!" Hot tears flowed down his face, and he pressed his eyelids close, hoping to stop them. For a long time, his choppy breathing and moist eyes persisted.

"And mistakes are forgiven when a person gives you another chance but you didn't even bother to give me one because you acted like the only one hurt when I was suffering too, Y/N!" His continuous shouts gave you a headache but you remained quiet. His eyes were the worst shade of red of the shattered depressed eyes, and his veins bulged from his forehead. His heart ached for rescue, but no one could understand him.

Not even you, who was once a sent angel from heaven tasked with guiding him in the right path.

"We're both hurt, Y/N and all we needed was to talk about it and figure things out but you didn't even bother to talk to me about it because you were selfish! You ARE selfish!" Violently crying, his sobs were accompanied with bouts of yelling.

"Jungkook I tried talkin-"

"WHEN?!" His resounding growl gave you a sign as to how far you'd pushed his rage levels. It wasn't normal, and that was the aspect that terrified you the most. "You left me that day without listening to what I had to say! You left me shattered because as long as you were happy that's all that mattered to you!" He appeared to be capable of slapping and hitting everything he saw at the time.