I hope I see you tomorrow (Peter x Bob)

Whenever I was next to you

"Hey Love,

I know and I am sorry. I tried. I really tried this time. I know when you read this I broke the promise. I know when you read this I'm gone.

Like I said, when you are reading this, it means my time has passed, but please don't take this as a bad thing. I left happy, happy to have you in my life, happy to spend it with you. You were the reason I stayed this long, you made life worth living.
You saved me.
In every possible way.
I am proud to call you my friend and glad I knew the real you.

You promised me I would live and thanks to you I did. I know you feel like you broke this promise but even though I didn't have a long life I want you to know I had a good one.
And I need you to understand you did nothing wrong.
None of this is your fault.

I never wanted you to promise I would survive.
I never needed you to promise me I'd survive.
I only needed you by my side and that's exactly where you were.
All I ever wanted to live a life like a normal human being with someone who saw me
and not my sickness.
And I did.
I lived with a person by my side who could actually see me
and still stayed,
still cared
who still loved me.

A person who didn't leave.

You, you knew about all my problems, all my insecurities and all of my mistakes and yet you stayed.

You know, when I was younger I learend, everybody is your friend until you are damaged and fucked up.
But the ones who still stay are worth risking it all.
And that's what I did.
I risked it all.
And I made it.

Sometimes all you need is someone to be there for you.
Not to fix your problems,
not to offer advice
or do anything in particular but simply be there.
Someone who shows up.
Someone who cares.
Someone to be present with what you are feeling, to see what you are going through.

To understand what you are going through.

This person is you.

This person has always been you.

I need you to understand that it was always you.

Always.

Since day we first met. Since the day we met you have been my fairytale prince. The perfect boy. But every fairytale must come to an end eventually.

My story has ended now but who knows, maybe yours has just started.

I don't want to tell you to never find someone else to love, in fact please do find someone who truly loves you, but I need to ask you for a favour.

My story has ended, yes, but in your story I was just a chapter. Please don't forget about this chapter.
Reread it when you feel like it.
Don't pretend like it didn't exist because you think it'll be easier this way.

Oh and before I forget it.

Please stop shaking your head. Weren't you the one who told me "every main character needs a dramatic and overwhelming backstory"? Please let our chapter be yours and please keep searching for a happy end. I found mine and so will you.

Whenever I was next to you I felt whole.

Whenever I was next to you time froze.

I do love you and I forever will love you with all my heart.

So please think about my words when you reject Justus on the doorstep again.

I want you to be happy, even thought it seems like it's not my destiny to be the reason for it.

Good bye, my love, we'll meet again, in another life.

Forever your Peter <3"

The boy stared at the letter in disbelive.

No.
No.
This is not how it was supposed to end. This is all wrong.
How did it all go so terrible wrong?

The love of his life was gone and in this Moment he realized it.

He crumpled up the letter, which was clearly marked by his tears and rushed out the door.
He had to make it to the Hospital.
He just had to.
Maybe he could at least say good bye...

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Hello~
This is the first chapter of my new story
I hope you will enjoy this story and that you will forgive me for my spelling mistakes
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The word count in this chapter is 712 but the future the chapters will be longer