Irreplaceable

Hostage.

"Be real." He mumbled

"I'm being deadass, say on god you didn't cry."

"On God." He mumbled

"Oh hell got a spot ready for you." I said before he shook his head

After a while we sat in silence.

"Grief will really fuck you up in the head and you won't even realize the effect until it's done." I said before he looked at me

"You don't even know half of what this shit is." He chuckled

"Well kind of, my paps killed my mother, just like he did with Shawn correct ?" I asked before he looked at me again.

"Exactly." I said before we sat in silence again.

"You hated yo moms as a kid though." He spoke

"Still doesn't replace the fact that I have to grow up without her." I shrugged

"Mm, so What's that been like?" He asked

"Hell, but I mean it's not like shit wasn't hell when she was here, it's just weird not having that figure." I said before he nodded and we sat in silence a little while longer.

"My daughter's turning four to answer yo question earlier, so what's a piece of advice you'd give to her that also has to grow up without that figure ?" He asked before turning my way and I thought for a minute

"To master detachment, once she accepts the fact that people come and go, any absences of her life will no longer phase her." I said before he looked away and nodded

"And a piece of advice for you, let her breath so she can make her own decisions." I said

Before he could speak the door opened and Tye came downstairs.

"Ight, appreciate you." Tye told Qua before dapping him up and Qua got up.

On his way out he stopped for a minute

"Y'all be careful with her, she just just as much a victim as we are." Qua told him before walking upstairs and Tye looked at me before I rolled my eyes

"Don't be like that." He said before I shook my head

"I genuinely hate you." I said before he looked at me

"You forgetting you tied up under my say so? I could literally do some fucked up shit so watch yo mouth." He told me

"Ok Tyshawn." I mumbled before rolling my eyes.

"I have to pee." I said and he sighed before standing up.

He untied me before holding my arm as he lead me upstairs and he went inside the bathroom with me causing me to stand there

"Can I pee alone ?" I asked and he squinted his eyes at me before stepping out the restroom and I shut the door before looking around

I came across a plastic broken razor and a black Bobby pin, I instantly stuffed them in my pocket before flushing the toilet and washing my hands.

Once I walked out the door he tied me back up before leading me back downstairs and tying me back up.

Later that night-

They had Za sitting with me for the night and he sat in his chair half asleep. I dug into my pocket and I instantly started to try and cut the rope but it was thick as hell and I had to do it slowly or else he'd hear it.

During the process I cut myself causing blood to leak and I winced in pain causing him to look at me.

"Fuck wrong with you ?" He asked Before standing up