Left alone

Silence

Hi I'm Ellie willows. And I'm just having the worst day of my life cause me and my mom are going to "visit a nice building", Pff she really thinks i'm that stupid, I know it's not just a nice building, she's going to leave me here, forever. It's a dorm for children or better teens. I have an internet friend, Sally she told me about this, she's in one of these too. How she got a phone in there? She's stealing the woman's phone to go on the internet when she's not in her office. Crazy in know but... i love this about her. To be honest I don't know if i have feelings for her cause we've been texting for like forever but I don't know. Like I never met her you know I can't be catching feelings like how? I don't like love..or better I hate it since my boyfriend I had like a 8 months a hurt me, bad. But whatever maybe you've realized I'm bi since of a maybe feelings for a girl I've never met in person and my ex boyfriend. I-
??-:"Ellie!"
Ellie:"huh, what?"
??:"we're here"
Ellie:"ok mom"
I got out of the car and shut the door. And I looked at a huge building right in front of me. It hat a lot of stairs.
Ellie:"i know what's going on you know that right"
Mom:"what? What do you mean?"
Ellie:"Ok i know you hate me but don't think I'm fucking stupid"
Mom:"language, what are you talking about"
Ellie:"i know this isn't just a building or a museum or something like that"
Mom:"how do you-„
Ellie:" I heard you, talking on the phone with Thomas, and I have a friend that is an a dorm like that and her mom told her the same fucking shit you told me to bring me here"
Mom:"Ellie listen i'm sorry but-„
Ellie:"but you don't love me"
Mom:"no I do love you I just..."
Ellie:"but it's not enough for you to keep me"
She just looked down and and said nothing
Ellie:"see...not stupid"
I just kept on going into the building cause I even feel like i would feel better without her. I mean I can't REALLY blame her after what happened but....this would be a another reason to keep my child with me. But I guess that's not the way she thinks. As I walked up the stairs I heard my mom walking next to me again.
Desk lady:"Hello welcome to the Dorm for teenagers kids, do you have an appointment?"
Mom:"yes..for Ellie willow's i-i'm Christina willow's"
Desk lady:" Ok Ellie, may you go with miss Fiona
I gave the desk lady a toxic look(if that makes sense) and looked at the other woman standing in front me smiling.She looks like a sweet person so I followed her. As we walked down a long hallway she tried to talk to me.
Miss Fiona-=Fiona
Fiona:"So I know this must be hard for you to understand why you're here but let me tell yo-"
Ellie:"There's nothing to explain, my mom left me here because she doesn't love me"
Fiona:"That's not true ellie she does love you but she has to handle to much to...keep you with her right now"
Ellie:"hah, don't act like she's gonna come back, i know she's not"
Fiona:"Well i can't say anything about you're mom coming back but we hope for you that she's just trying to fix things  and come back again"
Ellie:"right..."
She's not going to come back I know that. After what happened she...yeah whatever.
Fiona:"Here we are, that's the lounge the kids chill with there friends. Chill that's the right word right?" She said looking at me
Ellie:"yes..yes it is" I said with a little giggle.
As I looked at all the kids that are in the room i see this one boy that caught my eye in stare. I looked at him as i checked every inch of him out. Brown curly hair, brown eyes, not smiling. Mhm of course he's not, his mother probably left him here like a piece of shit like mine.
I know my mom didn't feel sorry at all, maybe his mom did the same thing. Since all of the other kids are smiling and laughing loud and doing annoying shit. He just sits there in a corner away from all the others. Except for one boy that stood next to him just looking around. He also has curly hair and he has glasses. The other boy had a book in his hand looking up at me now. I think he noticed my starring scenario, fuck.
Fiona:"Joe"
Ellie:"what"
Fiona:"his name is joe, the boy you're starring at"
Ellie:"pff I'm not starring at him"
Fiona:"yes you are, he's pretty cute right"
Ellie:"Mhm, sounds pretty wired when you're saying that"
Fiona:"why"
Ellie:"well since your old"
She looked at me with her eyes wide open,
Ellie:"sorry, i'm so sorry sometimes I say stuff that's in my head out loud"
She started laughing at me
Fiona:"it's fine I'm glad I know what you're thinking now" she smiled
I looked down and she started again.
Fiona:"I have to go to my office now, if you need anything you know where to find me right"
Ellie:"yes thank you miss"
Fiona:"call me Fiona" she smiled at me before she turned around walking away. Wow now I'm scared. There's no girl in here except for me. I guess the boys are the most trouble makers. But being the only girl here scares me a little to be honest, but better not show it so they don't noticed. (literally my Motto in life) i walked over to  joe i remember his name was, and the other boy. They were having a conversation but I didn't bother to interrupt them.
Ellie:"Hey"
They both immediately looked up at me like they waited for me to come.
?:"hey, you're the new one right"
Ellie:" have you ever seen me here?"
?:"no?"
Ellie:"well the I guess i am the new one, I'm ellie"
?:"i'm kris (don't know his name in the show) and that's joe"
Ha I remembered right. Joe...cool name I guess.
Ellie:"hi"
He just nodded at me with an nervous smile and he didn't show his teeth while smiling.
I looked at him in the thought of him going to say something.
Kris:"yeah he doesn't really talk a lot, especially not to new people...or girls"
Joe gave him a little kick in his legs to shut him up and he looked embarrassed. Cute, he's shy.
Ellie:"it's fine I get it, I don't like talking to new people too but I gotta make some friends since I'm going to stay for...a long while" I looked down.
Kris:"why us? Why didn't you go to the big friend group over there"
I looked at the boy group that kris was showing me with his head. I see a lot of boys laughing while making weird jokes or whatever boys are doing. I looked back at kris and started talking again.
Ellie:"because you guys do not look like you're going to make jokes about fucking me in the first two minutes"
Kris:"oh..boys huh?"
Ellie:"yeah..it's always been like that"
Kris:"yea I get it, sometimes I hate being a boy cause I know how disgusting they can be"
I laughed at his words as I walked next to him with my arms crossed. Joe got up and just left without saying anything while having his book on his side.
Ellie:"wow..he's..nice?"
Kris:"don't take it personally he's just shy"
Ellie:"mhm"
He started talking after a minute of silence.
Kris:"he thinks she's coming back you know"
Ellie:"he thinks who's coming back"
Kris:"his mom, he doesn't understand that she does not care and left him, he gets bullied a lot because he keeps saying that she's gonna come back"
Ellie:"oh.." I looked down. Wow he gets bullied..that's tuff.
Ellie:"well it was nice talking to you kris but i think I'm gonna go to my room now, you know packing and stuff"
Kris:"yeah of course see you Ellie"
Ellie:"see ya"
I was walking through the hallway to my room when I saw joe in front of Fiona's office. She just shut the door and he looked down before going into his room. "Mhm" I say to myself as I thought ||I will crack his silence someday||.