(39) Love vs. Lust

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“I remembered kissing Gordon in the ocean,” I said, looking straight into his eyes. A pained look crossed his face for a second but he quickly regained his composure.

“I’m so sorry Gabby,” he whispered, squeezing my hand.

“I’m the one who should apologize after the way I acted,” I replied, smiling weakly.

“You didn’t do anything wrong, now why don’t you try to get some sleep?” Cole asked.  I nodded my head and laid back down in my bed. Cole pulled the cover over me and then laid down next to me.

He had left my hand when I laid down and I craved the feeling of his arms around me. I needed him to hold me and make everything ok.

“I know what happened between us from what I’ve been told but I can’t remember it or how I felt, I just know that it must have hurt. I don’t want to get hurt again,” I whispered.

“I’m so sorry for what I did back then, I wish I could redo it all,” Cole replied from beside me.

“I’m not angry at you, I’m just scared,” I said. I felt some movement beside me and turned my head to see that Cole had moved closer to me. He was now propped up on his arm and looking at me with sad eyes.

“I promise I won’t ever hurt you again,” he breathed, his eyes begging me to believe him and I did. I don’t think he ever intended on hurting me in the first place, I could see how much he loved me.

“I believe you but you’re going to have to be patient with me, I’m all confused and messed up,” I said, taking his free hand in mine.

“Ok, just tell me what you want me to do and I’ll do it,” he replied seriously and I knew that was true too, I knew that he would do anything for me.

“Kiss me,” I whispered, that is what I wanted the most at the moment. I wanted to feel his lips on mine and his arms around me. I wanted to feel safe and loved but most of all I didn’t want to feel alone.

Cole looked surprised but did as I asked. He leaned forward and gently brushed his lips against mine. It was soft and sweet and left me wanting more. He looked a bit hesitant as he pulled away so I wrapped my arm around his neck and pulled him closer. His lips met mine again and this time he kissed me a bit harder. I moved my hand into his hair and kissed him back passionately. I could tell that he was being careful but I didn’t want him to be.

“I’m not going to break,” I breathed, pulling away and looking straight into his eyes.

“I don’t want you doing anything you’re going to regret,” Cole whispered, breathing heavily.

“I won’t, now please just kiss me,” I pleaded, pulling him closer again.

This time his lips crashed down on mine, kissing me the way I wanted him too. I could feel the love he felt for me with each kiss and I could feel the love I felt for him growing. His hand left mine and he slowly moved it up the side of my body causing little thrills of pleasure to shoot through me. Both my arms were around his neck so I loosened one and moved it down his chest. I wanted him closer to me so I wrapped my arm around him and pulled his body closer to me. I could feel him hesitating for a second before he moved his body so that he was laying half way on top of me. The feeling of his body so close to mine was amazing.

He moved his lips from my mouth and gently started placing kisses down my neck. The sensation was out of this world and I moaned with pleasure. His hand grabbed a hold of my waist and then slowly moved up my body pulling my shirt up with it. He slowly moved it over my breasts giving me time to object but I didn’t. I wasn’t sure about a lot of things but I was sure that I needed and wanted him right now. Once he realized that I wasn’t going to stop him he moved off of me and pulled my top off over my head.

His eyes lingered over my half naked body for a second and then his lips were on mine again. I kissed him back letting him know how much I wanted him as he moved on top of me. My body was going crazy as I tried to get him closer. I wrapped my one leg around his body, pulling him closer to me with it. He moaned in the back of his throat letting me know he wanted me just as much as I wanted him.

It was amazing and everything I needed. The way he kissed me and the way his body felt against mine as we made love was exactly like I had always dreamt it would be. His every move was filled with love and when we were done he held me tightly in his arms until I fell asleep.

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