Unrequited Love

Chapter 16

   "Morning" I looked up from my desk to see Theo strut into my office wearing a black suit with his hair tied in a low bun, "Damn you look bad" He sat on the couch.

"Thanks" I returned to my work, but felt him staring at me the whole time, "Why are you here?"

"Yuri told me she moved" I didn't say anything, thinking he would just leave, or rather hoping we would. But he just went on, "Can't believe after all these years she just got up and moved out" He laughed a little, "I mean I guess we all knew this day was going to come eventually."

"What do you mean?" I surprised myself when I asked this.

"Well I mean she was just your roommate, were you expecting her to live with you forever? It's not like you two were in a relationship. She was going to leave sooner or later, find a job other than the coffee shop" I had a confused look on my face while Theo was talking to me. I think he noticed, he paused for a second then let out an exaggerated sighed, "You didn't know huh? Damn Ren, you can be such a shitty person. Yuri got a new job working for some software company in Lower Manhattan so I guess she thought it would be best if she moved to Brooklyn, depending on where her work is, it could be a shorter commute."

"Did she tell you that?"

"I thought she was going to tell you but I guess something happened"

"She told me the day she was moving, but I guess I was too upset to listen to the rest of it" I leaned back in my chair, "I was pretty drunk too. I ended up passing out for the rest of the day and woke up to her and all her stuff gone" I wanted to cry but I held in the tears while looking down at my hands, "It feels kind of lonely without her" I tried to laugh it off, "I didn't want her to leave."

"Why don't you ask that girl you're dating to move in with you?"

"We broke up."

"What? Why? I thought Yuri said she follows you around like a little puppy"

"She did" I paused and looked up at Theo, "Sometimes I think I'm meant to be alone. I mean what is so bad about living your whole life without having someone to love? Why do people feel the need to have a partner during their time on earth anyways? We all die alone anyways, our life on earth is meaningless. I do what I am suppose to do according to society, why do I need anything else."

"Maybe because humans want to have a purpose in life, if loving someone gives them a reason to live, well, doesn't sound so bad." Theo stood up from the chair, "You're old enough to figure all this out on your own. But, I think you're in love and I think you know who that person is. You just never wanted to admit it. I don't blame you though, our childhood screwed us both up in the head. Especially when it came to this thing we call love. But, it can be hard living when you know you have nothing or no one to live for."

"Wait" Theo turned back around. I sat up from the chair, "Is it possible to be in love with two people at once?"

"I guess. You want like a polyamory relationship or something?"

"I don't think so, maybe I'm just confused."

"Confused on who to choose? Are you implying that you love both of them?"

"No"

"Then what is it?"

"I just don't get it." I said.

"Don't get what? You want two side hoes? I don't know if they will both be okay with that, so just forget about it" He walked towards the door, "Ren, I don't think you're in love with both of them. Nor is there no picking or choosing when it comes to love."

--------------------------

It has been a month since I last spoke to Leo, which was the last time I saw her. I haven't texted or called- nor has she. I thought giving her some space would help, but how long was I suppose to wait. Or was space not what she wanted, did she want me to chase after her. But even so, something is holding me back from chasing after Leo- that someone is Yuri.

I have not talked to Yuri either, which is the worst part.

I remember joking about Yuri moving out and how I wanted to live alone in a quiet house, but now it is painful coming home to a dark pitiful home. I realized how big my apartment is for one person; to have two bedrooms and two bathrooms, with two walk in closets, two bathtubs, a dining room table set for six people, a kitchen with an island in the middle, and a living room for a whole family. An apartment in New York set for more than one person to live in. I want to runaway from all of it, but that would make me look more like a coward than I already am. I don't know why I acted annoyed every time Yuri called me her little rice cake, I do not know why I acted like I didn't like going to Yuri's band concerts or pretending to not like when she would crawl into my bed at night. I felt somewhat special, to know she would always comes home to my house, to know she loved me.

Another cold windy day, large grey clouds covered the sky. I sat at a smaller coffee shop in Lower Manhattan close to the bay, working from my laptop. Earlier that day I did walk into work, but walked right out when I saw Theo flirting with one of the workers. So now I am still wearing my work attire; black slacks with a silk white button up and a long black coat with black boats while sitting at this small coffee shop, working.

"Ren?"

I looked up to see a her brown curly hair being held back by a small headband, wearing white cuffed pants and black platforms with an odd looking shirt, some would call fashionable. Her white thin eyeliner winged off her eyelids and her long black eyelashes almost touched her thin eyebrows.

"Leo?"