This is going to be the most difficult conversation to have with this damn man.
"I... Um..." I start.
"Why did you fucking leave?" He starts off. It looks like we're going to start off with the hardest question of all. The one that will open all our old wounds that we've patched up over time. Our old wounds will begin to bleed causing fresh wounds. Am I ready for fresh wounds?
"Because?" I question his question with a damn question.
"Answer me Mac." He snaps in frustration with my question.
"Because my dad wasn't my damn dad! And you with your damn whores on you every single day. It was hard." I start off saying. He stares at me with a blank expression. So, now I have to try to jog this fucker's memory.
Just peachy.
"You remember the night you told Tomahawk something and he left without talking to me again?" I ask, try to jog what memory he might have.
"Yea, I pulled you into the hall." He answers.
"We argued and I gave you something sacred." I start off. Seeing as he looks confused I start again.
"You took my damn virginity. You didn't remember it. You were that shit faced." I sound so broken. Before he could even deny anything, I speak before he can.
"That doesn't matter anyways. When I heard you talking to Kaiser I knew I was right. You didn't remember. It was hard trying to pretend nothing happened. I could remember everything while you couldn't even remember a thing about that night. It got harder and harder. I just couldn't breathe, I couldn't think. So I went from online classes to classroom classes." I begin to say.
"You just took off." He says.
"Because it was all too much for me. Because.... I felt something that you obviously never did." I answer in a barely audible voice.
"Did you leave knowing you were pregnant." He asks, fear dancing in his eyes.
"No, I never found out until months later." I answered looking up at the sky.
"Why didn't you just come back? We could have figure something out. We could have handled the situation we put ourselves in, together. Why did you hide it?" He questions.
"If they came out without resembling you, I was going to come visit. Eventually would have told you. When our son was born I knew I couldn't. I just couldn't get the courage to even tell you. I didn't want to get hurt again. I didn't want them to get hurt. I was trying to do what I thought was the best." I answer truthfully.
"What are their names?" He asks as he looks up at the starlit sky.
"Everleigh Jolene Archer-Creed and Blade Onyx Archer-Creed." I whisper out.
Praying to God he doesn't kill me.
"Their last names are??" He says stunned.
"Creed. It's their rightful last name. I couldn't take that away from them or you." I explain. Hoping he doesn't get anymore pissed off.
"He has my middle name?" He asks as a ghostly smile dancing on his lips.
"I... Yyyy-yye-ee-s." I start to stutter. I never stutter. What the hell?
"She has my mom's name? As her middle name?" He asks again, the ghostly smile becomes visible with the passing seconds.
All I could do was nod my head yes. I begin to walk off towards the bar. I truly need my children now.
"Did you ever love me?" He calls out while walking after me.
"Never stopped loving you." I whisper out. I make it to the door as I feel his hand on mine; causing me to pause in my trek.

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Reaper's War (Creed MC Book 1)
RomanceHave you ever been in love with your best friend? Well, I certainly have. I'm the girl from the wrong side of the tracks. The girl who is an illegitimate child. The girl who is a bastard child. In other words, my mom was a club bunny. The girl who c...