𝐖𝐚𝐢𝐭 𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐔 ৎ୭

XXXI

Mercedes April Porter
Baton Rouge, Louisiana

I stand outside the delivery room after calling everyone Carter told me to.

He gave me the numbers. I called or texted his mama, his daddy, her mama, Demenah, Dereyna, DeAngelo, and his friend Bookbag.

"My nephew finna be a fawtha!" Demenah exclaims in excitement.

"What's happening?" His mama, DeCarrie asks me.

"Uhm, they forced her into labor. They broke her water and she's been pushing for half an hour." I say over her screaming in agony.

"Okay, thank you fa calling us sweetie." She goes sits down.

A baby can be heard crying.

"Ain't no wayyy." DeCarrie cheeses.

We wait a few minutes as they clean up the baby until the doctor lets us in the room.

"The new mother is resting so please be mindful." Sum white lady whispers.

We nod and continue in.

"Oh my God." Dereyna admires the newborn.

"Wash y'all's hands." Carter mugs us.

Everybody takes turns washing their hands and I let them each hold the baby before I do.

"It's so little." I smile.

"Mhmm."

"What's his name?" I rock it slowly.

"Isaiah." He whispers watching me hold him.

"She outta be so proud of herself." I shake my head.

"I certainly am, she carried our child for 9 whole months." He looks at her lovingly.

Lemme stop before I cry.

"Here." I hand Isaiah back.

"You leaving?" I nod.

"Aight, call us anytime. I know you gone worry bout my cousin but he'a be aight." He sits down next to a sleeping Jabriah.

"Okay, enjoy fatherhood. Tell Jabriah imma visit her after she get discharged." I whisper.

"Bye love you."

"Love you too C." I quietly close the door.

Aw, a real bitch getting mushy.

I drive home and frown at my empty apartment. Missing D right about now...

"I'd fuck iCarly if I had a chance." I rap, walking in my bedroom.

I open my drawer and pull out a book. Opening page 115 I pull out a stamp.

It sticks to my tongue for a minute till I remove it and replace it with another one.

D would be so pissed at me for doing acid but I just like the experience.

I do one more and lay down on my bed.

Flashback

I chose a medical abortion and I'm regretting it like fuck right now.

"You sure you're okay?" Moonshine asks me.

"Yes!" I answer through the door.

"Call me if you need something!" She walks away.

"Oh my God." I groan.

It feels like 20x the pain of period cramps with double the blood.

My phone rings, I let it go to voicemail while I take my medicine.