Serendipity

chapter 65:- I destroyed her💔

Flashbacks and thoughts in Italics

Neeche jo note hai wo bhi parhlena🙂
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There are situations where you say and do things in anger but didn't know the outcome of our actions .How much we are hurting the other person or what will be the consequences of it in future.In this anger,you mostly hurt the person you love and vowed to never hurt him/her.And when you finally realize your mistake,it's too late.Too late to apologize, too late to make the things good again.Sometimes they are forgivable but sometimes they aren't.

I failed.I failed as a father.

The first person whom Sidharth had promised with his life that he would love her unconditionally and never let anyone hurt her.Now,she was crying in his arms and he could do anything.

Even if Samaira didn't hate me, I hate myself now.A lot

His heart broke in a million pieces when he heard her say that someone abused her.How could someone abuse this little girl ?She didn't deserved it.Hell,she neither deserved his anger nor the depression.

I told her that I am always there for her but where was I when she needed me the most?

Sid:Samaira, Miara

Sidharth furiously yet gently caressed her back but nothing was calming her down.She couldn't breathe,she was trying to breathe from her mouth but she was unable to do that also.Her eyes were almost shut and now her grip was also loosening. His heart broke yet again seeing her state.

Samaira:talk....please

Sid:what?

Samaira:talk.....to......me

Samaira often get panic attacks and she is familiar with it now but the severe panic attacks like this one still frightens her.The same severe panic attack had happened when she had told her past to her best friend and Max but those two were there to help her.

It isn't that she didn't trusted Sidharth, it was just that she knew he didn't knew what panic attacks actually are and how to calm it.

Only if she knew that he was also a victim of these panic attacks...........

Sid:talk?about what?

Samaira:anything......just....talk.....please

Sid:okay,what is your favourite colour?

Was it a dumb question?

His logical mind couldn't stop but think about it .Maybe it was but now Sidharth's major concern was Samaira.He understood Samaira's way of distracting herself from the panic attacks so immediately asked whatever came in his mind.

Samaira:my.....favourite......colour is......blue

Sid:but it your favourite colour was pink,right?

Samaira:yeah.....it was.....but choices.......change ,right?........I used.....to like.......pink beca.....use it was......my favourite princess's......colour.....I used.....to like....her a.....lot but.......now I.....am....big and.....my favurite.....colour is blue beca-

Samaira stopped immediately and inhaled a large amount of air as she could finally feel her breathing coming to normal.Her heart was also beating in the normal pace now.After that she didn't say anything just continued taking long ,deep breaths .

Thank God,this way still works

Sid:are you okay?

Samaira:yeah