Meeting the Millers

|06| Official conversation

Tw: Calorie counting

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I was sort of having a mental breakdown in the school bathroom, minus the waterworks. It's not like I was freaking out, but I was thinking.... A lot. Trying to calculate is hard

Yesterday after I played uno with my siblings I had a bag of chips, some McDonald's and a chocolate bar. Now why is this relevant you ask? Medium fries give a total of three hundred and thirteen calories, cheeseburgers give you two hundred and thirty six, plus a bag of Cheetos adds another one hundred and sixty. Lastly we have a bar of dairy milk which finishes me off with about 240 calories.

I'll save you from doing the math, I had a total of 949 calories yesterday due to that little binge. I limit myself to six hundred a day, 800 if I'm feeling good about myself, and although deep down I know that going over just a little isn't that bad.... I still feel guilty.

I rest my head on the mirror as I close my eyes. Even if it was twenty four hours ago I still feel sick, and I'm not one to force food out of my system, I believe that once it's done it's done. "Hey" An unexpected voice says

I lift up my head before turning off the taps. "Hey" I focus on the hand drier as I place my hands under them

"You ok?" June asks

I swear this is like the first time she's spoken to me in god knows how long

"Fine why do you ask"

"You just looked a little stressed"

I finally turn around, "I'm fine"

She nods slowly, "Ok... cool"

After realising that this conversation isn't going anywhere, I leave the bathroom without another word. I do miss our friendship, matter of fact I think about our past all the time. June and I were inseparable and everyone in school knew it, but then the day she started hanging out with Eliza everything changed.

I spot my best friends seated at a table with Santiago, Aaron, Lola and Adriana. Honestly, walking into the cafeteria is just gonna make me feel even more miserable than I already am. Deciding that I wanna go home, I walk out of the school building before making my way to the parking lot. Enzo's standing by his car, smoking of course "What's wrong?" He senses my sudden change in mood

"Can you drop me home?"

He stubs out his blunt before unlocking the car and I get into the passenger side, I roll the window down before laying my head back. "Did something happen?" My brother asks

"No I just wanted to go"

"You sure?"

I close my eyes and he sighs

When I got home I went straight to my room and slept until about 2:30. Afterwards I changed into my gym clothes and left the house, I know I've gotta be at the Miller house by 4:30 so today the treadmill will just have to do. Thankfully it was quiet at the gym, people either come in the morning or past 4pm so 2 is always a good time for me to come.

After half an hour on the treadmill I started to grow a little tired but I pushed through to make it forty five. It still doesn't feel like enough but I'm running out of time, it's currently 3:45. I pant as I run a hand through my sweaty hair, "Fuck" I breathe out before picking up my bottle of water and leaving.

The fresh air calms me as I step out of the gym. I close my eyes as I enjoy it for a second, however I then remember how I have to go home and shower otherwise I'll be late, I just pray that my parents aren't home.

I sniff as I shut the front door behind me, Lola frowns. "You left school to go to the gym?" She says confused

"I left school because I felt like it" I reply before making my way up the stairs