Drug of choice - ashtray

II

I was sitting in my room when I heard rue come home, followed by arguing, followed by rue storming into my room.
"Abbi I need a favour"rue said
"What"I said warily
"Are you sober"rue asked
"Yes rue-"
" pee for me, mums fucking drug testing me. Make sure you don't leave her sight or you might be next"  rue said
"Fuck rue seriously. I hate what we're doing to mum. What's the point in being sober when I have to feel bad anyway because I'm covering for you"I said
"Abbi, I know, and I'm sorry but please. Just do this one thing for me I won't have to ask again"she begged
"Fine, whatever , never again rue" I replied

Once I was done I handed her the cup.
"Thank you, I love you, im sorry"she said
"It's fine,love you too"
She kissed my head and ran off.
It's not like I can judge rue. I mean I didn't know what she did or took. I try to stick to what I know is relatively safe: opium, Oxys , xanax you get the jist. It wasn't everyday, usually a joint every 4 hours was enough, I take xanax at school and when I go out, to keep the edge off. Anything else I take on occasion, not usually for more than a week straight at a time. Rue on the other hand, was sick. I'm getting there, I'm so close, but I'm not an addict. Not really. Rue was beyond that, not only was she an addict , but an addict who didn't want to stay sober.

Rue came back into my room looking pleased with herself.
"Hey where going to lexis" she winked
"What. No" I said
" im going mckays party"
"Yeah, me too. Since when do 15 year olds get invited to proper high school parties" she said
" since when do drug addict Percy pessimists get invited to cool kid parties"I bit back
"Shut up, get up"rue said
"Im not going in this"I said, basically in pyjamas
"Well im not waiting for you" she walked away
"What the fuck rue!" I called after her scrambling too my feet and jogging to follow her

We were walking to the party when a car pulled up behind us
"Yo Casper,you want a ride!"kat shouted hanging out the car window
"Kat!" I screamed.
"Shit she knows fucking everyone" rue mumbled as I ran up to the car.
The car ride there was the party itself. But to say rue wasn't in her element would be an understatement.
When we got the the party rue still didn't look comfortable. I was ready to mingle but I didn't know how to get rue to unwind.
"Fuck this"she said grabbing my wrist and pulling me into a bathroom.
She pulled a bag out her pocket then a key.
Scooping some of the unknown substance she turned to me and said
" put your head up"
I trust rue and I basically take anything she hands me.
"Shit"I said squinting my eyes and rubbing my nose
She then snorted some herself like it was nothing.
The room was spinning. I looked over at rue, who probably had twice as much as me. She was stumbling and falling over crawling on the floor, I went to pick her up but she waved me off
"I'm fine go have fun"she mumbled
I stared at her for a minute before I left. She was fine.
I saw fez sitting on the coach looking high as fuck and jumped on top of him.
"Supppp fez" I said in my best fezco voice,mocking him
" yo abs, you seen rue"
"Nahh" I lied through my teeth
"Yea ok" he said not sarcastically
"You look high as fuck" I laughed at him
" yeah so do you, you too young for this shit"fez said
"And how young where you when started dealing fez"I said
"That's different"he replied
We sat in silence for a while. I was resting my head on fez'a shoulder and thinking about what he said. I'm not an addict, I do drugs, everyone in this whole fucking town does drugs, it's not like I'm rue. Not willing to give it up I fired up again.
"Everyone's doing drugs fez, I'm fine, it's not like I'm an addict"
Fez looked at me, contemplating weather he should let it go.
"Yea but you 15 and you got your emotions mixed up in it, you ain't doing this shit for fun"
"What"I said
"Like,you might not be addicted now, but you like rely on drugs and shit, so it ain't long before you start needing more. I ain't gonna be able to allow that when the time comes"he explained
"So what, when you decide I'm pushing it you just stop selling me drugs,it's just that easy"I replied
"That's exactly what imma do"he said
"But you couldn't do that for rue"I said without thinking
"Rue was already an addict when I met her, I got a chance to make it right with you"he said
"Ok fez we'll I'm gonna go get a drink since I'm not allowed to get High at a fucking party" I walked off
I was in the kitchen when Nate came out looking pissed. He pushed everything of the table, glass smashing everywhere.
"Get the fuck out of here!, get the fuck out of the kitchen!"he screamed
Everyone ran out, I know i fucking didn't.
"What the fuck are you looking at"he directed at me
"What"I spat 
"What the fuck are you looking at" he repeated exaggerating each word
"Yeah I fucking heard you"i said
"Watch your fucking mouth"he replied
"Oh sorry" I replied mockingly "I'll be on my way"I fake bowed to him
"No you fucking don't"
He blocked my way with his arm
"Let me past Nate"I said
"Who the fuck even invited a kid to this party anyway"he said
"Fuck off" I scoffed
"No, seriously" "who the fuck invited this bitch!"he shouted at everyone
"YO, does anybody know who invited this bitch to the party!" He directed at anyone.
"Somebody better speak up, or I'm gonna fuck this bitch up!" He shouted
That was it for me, I picked up a knife and lifted it up for him to see, fully ready to use it.
He backed up looking frantic.
"Fucking do it, I dare you"I screamed
"Hit me, there's only two outcomes, you go home in a police car or a fucking body bag!"
" I don't care what happens to me and I'm not scared of you so fucking hit me!" I dropped my voice dangerously low so only he could hear.
"I promised I'd kill you if you fucked with me me again" " so do it...hit me"
He looked pale, like he could be sick. I stayed in his face for a few more seconds before Turning around and walking away,but I wasn't going home.

Ok I know this chapter didn't have ashtray on it but i don't think ash was at mckays party and the next chapter is gonna be all about abbi and ash so I'm making it up to you! It's gonna be a while before ash can trust abbi but I meannn. If your patient it's worth it