dear soobin || yeonbin

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dear soobinnie,

i'm applied for the dance academy today, i'm surprised that my parents allowed me to though, i thought they would be against it. but it's good that they allowed me to hehe

beomgyu and i went out earlier in a shopping center, and it was my first time going into crowds. you know who i'm like with people, i cannot breathe and i get occasional panic attacks. beomgyu knew about it, since he read it up once he knew i had social anxiety, so he made sure that i wasn't uncomfortable the whole time.

beomgyu has been clingy lately, i like it. i'm not sure why, if it's because of my suicidal tendencies or if he just likes physical affection.

if i really do get into the academy, i can go there in 2 months time. you always said that you want me be happy right? well then maybe i'll be happier there.

i feel happy now though, taehyun and hueningkai like to play with my hair and give me belly rubs, and beomgyu is just really sweet in general. he checks my wrists to make sure i don't cut them.

also i have a nagging feeling behind my brain that something happened to you, but i'm just going to ignore it. you're doing fine in Ansan, right?

fun fact: foxes are smelly. do i smell? 🤨

stan loona,
yeonjun

a/n: angst in the next few chapters 💁🏻‍♀️