The drive back to the buses was quiet. Kellin and Vic had fallen asleep on each others shoulder. Jack, Gabe and Jesse were whispering quietly amongst themselves. Vicky and Justin held hands has he slept on her shoulder, Jaime Mike and I sat across in silences. We all knew this wasn’t good. I knew they were scared about me, how I was reacting to this. How close we were to being in Los Angele's, and they were right to be scared. I was scared.
“Nikki, move over a bit”
“Nikki, your hogging all the blankets”
I was slowly getting irritated, but I didn’t want to turn over and take them from her, but why was she hogging at the blankets. My head was killing me. I wasn’t even moving and it was pounding. How much did I drink?
I was trying my hardest to yank over some of the blankets but they wouldn’t budge. This girl was strong, or maybe I was just weak this morning. Yeah we'll keep it to that.
“Nikki, move over”
Another groan came from behind me, and I felt the blanket loosen. Slowly pulling it up and over my bare shoulder I deiced to risk the pain and turn over to cuddle with my girlfriend.
Closeing my eyes to help bare witht the pounding I flipped over, pain shot through my head like a knife. Squeezing my eyes untill it weakened I then relaxed and slid my hand over her shoulder.
It was more broad then I remember, I never had to reach that far to get my arm around. Maybe she gained some weight and I hadn’t realized.
Snuggling in closer, my head lay next to the back of her head, breathing in the familiar scent of .. Man sweat?! Why did she smell like a dude? Where was the girly vanilla smell?. My stomach turned.
Suddenly she turned over and my hand grazed her hairy chest. Hairy chest!
My eyes shot wide open and came face to face with Vic.
“DUDE!! “ my arm shot back. As I screamed, scaring Vic wide awake.
“WHAT WHAT WHAT?!!” he was in panic.
“WHY ARE YOU IN MY BUNK?”
“I DON’T KNOW, DID YOU ?.. DID YOU JUST CUDDLE WITH ME?” our faces were in both disgust.
“YES, YOU DID, KELLIN!!”
“I THOUGHT YOU WERE NIKKI, ITS NOT MY FAULT!”
“DO I HAVE BOOBS?”
“NO BUT YOUR HAIR AND.. AND..” I could feel my stomach turning and twisting as the toxic liquids I put into it yesterday fought with my empty stomach. Slowly I could feel it coming up, my throat closing to try and stop it was causing me to gag.
“ DON’T YOU DARE BARF ON ME MAN!” Vic was trapped, he backed into the corner, but I ran off the bunk and into the bathroom. Letting all my insides out.
“Babe?” I heard a soft angelic voice from behind me as a hand landed gently on my back, slowly rubbing it in circular motion. It was calming but also made it easier for the junk to come up.
“Ill go grabe you some water”
Leaning over the toilet I nodded, when she left I slid down the wall and placed my head in my hands.
Ughh this was terrible.
“Here , rinse” she came back, gently taking my hand away from my face and handing me a glass of water. She was gorgeous, her red hair was up in a messy bun as she had just woken up. Her face held no make up from last night, it was flawless. She had on one of my tshirts and a pair of small shorts. Ones that drove me crazy, but her eyes. Those hazel eyes that sometimes turned a hint of green depending on the how the light shone on them. They lured me in, but this morning she looked sad. The bags under those beautiful eyes of hers. It looked as if she has been crying all night. My heart broke. What did I do last night ? Did I make her cry? Is that why I woke up to Vic and not her this morning? I had to.. Had too..
My insides flooded out once again, it hurt so bad. I hadn’t eaten so now it was just acid in my stomach. I hated hang overs. When it finished I gurgled the water and spit it out returning to my seat against the wall. She looked at me with concern.
“Did I do something?” I asked. She looked at me funny and scrunched up her nose.
“I don’t know, something stupid? Something that made you cry? Her face turned a bit red and she looked away.
“Baby , im sorry what ever I did I..”
“You did do anything Kellin.” her voice was small. She looked at me now smiling. I knew it was fake but I decided to take it. I had no strength to fight her on it.
“okay” my body was weak, I felt exhausted and all I wanted to do was sleep but afraid to move from this spot.
She moved to sit beside me as I laid my head on her shoulder and i slowly drifted to sleep.