DESTINED // B.E

t h i r t y - s i x

b i l l i e

"oh, you're awake!"

i tried to turn my head to look at the doctor, but i stopped as i realized that i was in a neck brace. i looked ahead of me. my right leg was propped up and had a wrap around it. my right hand was wrapped up as well.

"how are you feeling?" the doctor asked as he walked over to me.

"sleepy." i mumbled as i closed my eyes again.

he let out a small, soft laugh. "that's understandable," he told me. "especially after the surgery you just went through."

"surgery?"

i really don't remember anything from after the initial crash.

"yes," he sighed. "your leg, well... we almost had to amputate it. if the ambulance didn't get to the scene when they did, you wouldn't have your lower leg right now. the surgery was to place a metal rod in your leg; it was the only way to save it. that was really the only big injury you suffered, aside from some whiplash, and cuts and scrapes here and there."

i only slighted nodded in response. i feel drowsy as hell right now, and it's taking everything in me to not fall back asleep.

"do you need anything? some water?" he asked.

"i just wanna see my son and my girlfriend. please."

"right. they're here, as well as your family, but we didn't let them come in immediately, just so you wouldn't get worked up or anything. i can bring them in now?" i opened my eyes a bit to see that he was raising a brow.

"please." i mumbled again.

he gave a nod and a warm smile before walking out of the room. i heard the door click shut.

i just laid there for a moment.

i remember coming home after hanging out with ivy and makayla. i was driving and there was a green light, so i didn't bother to stop; i just kept going. as i did, somebody drove in front of me, causing me to t-bone them.

i also remember trying to move my leg. i almost threw up when it just flopped, similar to a spaghetti noodle or something.

after that, i really don't remember much, aside from the ambulance getting me out of the car and rushing to bring me to the hospital.

the door clicked open. i looked in front of me, and i smiled softly as i saw jessie and cameron enter first, followed shortly after by my parents, finneas, and claudia.

"momma!"

cam tried to wiggle out of jj's arms, but she stopped him from doing so. they walked over to my bed and pulled up a chair beside it, sitting cam in their lap.

i took in his appearance. his curly hair, which is usually kinda messy, was extremely messy. his face was puffy and his eyes were red, signaling that he'd be crying. i frowned.

jj told him that he's gotta be careful. i opened my hand for his and he gently placed it in mine. "hi, baby." i murmured softly.

"hi, momma. are you okay?" his brows were furrowed deeply.

"yeah, i'm okay, my love," i assured softly as i lifted my hand to softly cup his cheek. "i'm okay, don't worry."

i talked with him for a moment before mom told him to go over to her, which he did.

"how are you feeling, princess?" jessie asked, her eyes scanning mine quickly.

she's been crying too.

"i'm fine, lovebug," i gave a reassuring smile. "just tired as hell. my leg hurts too, but whatever medicine they have me on, is definitely working."

they looked relieved to hear that. she lifted her hand to carefully hold mine, carefully not to hurt it from where it was wrapped up.

"i'm glad you're okay," they whispered, not meeting my eyes as they looked at my hand, then down at my leg. "i was so worried."

"i'm a bad bitch, you can't kill me." i gave a lazy smirk.

she shook her head with a laugh, as did everyone else in the room.

i leaned my head back against the bed, which was propped up some. it was silent for a moment.

"i'm sorry i wrecked your car." i frowned.

of course i wrecked it the first time i drove it.

"i really couldn't give a shit about my car right now. all that matters is that you're okay," they pressed a kiss to my knuckles. "it was getting old anyways." they said quietly as an excuse.

she's only had it for five and a half, maybe six, years, but okay.

"i love you." i sighed after another quiet moment.

"i love you too. so much." they whispered.

i wanted to talk to my parents, fin, and claudia too, but i just could not stay awake.

<~~~~~>

i slowly opened my eyes as i woke up due to the sharp pain in my leg.

my medicine has definitely worn off.

i looked beside me. jessie had her arms crossed on top of the bed with her head laying in them, still sitting in the chair from earlier. their eyes kept fluttering shut, though they were obviously fighting their sleep.

i looked at the clock that was on the wall in front of my bed. it was 4:47 a.m.

"baby," i murmured softly as i slowly lifted my hand to place it on her head. "why are you still here? you should be home."

they turned to face me, their brows furrowing. "and leave you here? fuck that."

"go home," i insisted. "i'll be fine."

"no. i'm not leaving." she stood her ground.

i let out a sigh, knowing that this wasn't something that i was gonna win. i glanced around the room. mom and dad were still here as well; they had somehow managed to find a way to sleep on the tiny couch that was in here.

"where's cam?"

"he went home with finny and claudia," she told me. "they had to drag him out because he didn't wanna leave you here either."

i frowned at that.

i glanced around the room once more before spotting a big chart on the wall, that mad my basic information for being here written on it in expo marker. there were three different medicines listed at the bottom, all for different times of the day. i sighed as i realized that it would still be a bit before i could get another dose.

my leg hurts so fucking bad.

"you okay?" jj asked, concern laced heavily in their tone. "do you need anything?"

"i'm fine," i lied as i leaned back against the bed. "go to sleep, my love. you're exhausted; i can tell."

"i'm not." she huffed.

"please," i insisted. "go to sleep. i'll be okay."

she let out a defeated sigh. "fine."

"i love you." i told her quietly.

"i love you. more than you could possibly know."

<~~~~~>

a/n ayooo

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