18. Family Problems

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A/N: That's probably the shortest part ever, sorry. But at least I uploaded like I promised? :D Don't hate me please... enjoy! :)

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

Sauli:

Time passed by pretty quickly. Too quickly to be honest. A few more weeks since I told Adam about that stupid doctor were passed and my parents tried to talk to me about it but I always refused to start a conversation with them about that. All I always had to say was “It won’t work anyway, accept it.” They still tried several times but kind of accepted when I didn’t want to talk about it. I guess what they’re thinking is that I will change my opinion and that I’m just too stubborn for it now. Wrong. I won’t change my opinion on that. I’m not even sure if I want to hear how their first meeting went. I kind of want to know what lies that stupid therapist said but on the other side, I didn’t.

In the past couple of weeks all I did was trying to ignore my parents. Every time we started a normal conversation it always ended up with this topic, so I refused to even try it anymore. I hope they will realize how stupid all of this was.

Adam and I were a couple for nearly two months now. Our relationship was beautiful. I would have never thought we would end up like that. I remember how it all started. How I scratched his name into my desk, how I always stared at him in maths lessons and looked away when he looked at me, how I wanted to go to detention, hoping he would be there… and now he was my boyfriend. It’s weird how fast things can change.

A new school week had just begun. It was lunch break when I walked through the hallway on my way to the cafeteria. Adam and I would usually have another tutor lesson now but he said there are a few teacher – parents meetings right now and some parents wanted to talk to him. I mean that didn’t bother me anyway since I already did improve, maths finally made sense to me – most of the time at least. Plus, if I had questions about anything I could always ask him when we were at his apartment.

School wasn’t as bad as it once was anymore in general. Since the bullies that always made my school day living hell were expelled I could finally walk through the hallways without being scared anymore. Nobody wanted to be friends with me, that didn’t change. But like I always say – I don’t even care. I will leave all of this behind in not even a year. And then I will never see any of them ever again. And I’m more than thankful for that. I could never trust any of them either, since they never really care about me and if anyone would do that now, I couldn’t believe them. You can’t trust anybody to be honest. People are so false and always want what’s best for themselves. The students at my school were like that, everyone of them. And my parents were like that too. So actually I really only had one person in this world I could always got to and trust. Adam.

I sat down on an empty seat, pulling out my lunch box out of my bag. I could also buy some food in the cafeteria but most of the stuff was so gross, so I would never do that. Plus, I hated queuing with so many stupid people around me that would just insult me or ignore me. And I don’t know what’s worse.

I had just finished my lunch when I decided to walk to the classroom already. It didn’t bother me being the first to arrive there and probably be alone then. I was alone everywhere in school, even when I was surrounded by hundredths of students. I immediately left the cafeteria and made my way over to the classroom my next lesson was in when I  heard two strangely familiar voice from the next hallway. I slowly made my way over to the corner to look around, without them noticing me when I saw something that made me want to run away and never come back. I saw my dad and Adam walking out of one of the classrooms, saying their goodbyes. Are you kidding me?

“Thank you for your time, Mr. Lambert. You really helped me opening my eyes about everything.” My dad said, shaking his hand.

“You’re welcome, Mr. Koskinen. I’m always glad when I can help.” Adam answered and with that, my dad left.

I stood there, feeling like I was glues to the ground and I had a big lump in my throat. What the hell were they talking about? I took a look on my watch, seeing that there were still a few minutes of lunch break left so I could also talk to Adam now. I couldn’t wait until after school when I could ask him when no one was around. So I walked over to the classroom Adam was in, slowly opening the door and seeing that no one except for him was in there anymore.

Ahem.” I fake coughed to get his attention.

“Hey, Sau-.. Mr. Koskinen.” Adam said and I rolled my eyes.

“We’re alone.” I hissed.

“You never know.” He answered. “Anyway, what are you doing here?” He asked while I walked over to him.

“You were talking to my dad?” I whispered, standing in front of his desk. “What were you talking about?”

“Oh you saw that?” Adam asked. “Well he came to talk to me about the tutoring lessons, asking how you were doing. And in general: he asked how you were doing in maths, if you had improved. And I said that you did.” He smiled.

“That’s not the only thing you were talking about, was it?” I asked. I could already guess since I saw the look he gave me.

“No.” He shook his head. “He then started talking about your weird behavior and he asked if you were like that in school, too. I acted like I didn’t know what he was talking about so he explained that there were a few problems you and your parents have at home. But he thought that everything would be solved already-“

“Nothing is solved.” I interrupted him.

“I know.” Adam agreed. “So yeah he asked if you’ve changed over the past few weeks.”

“What did you answer?” I asked, suddenly getting nervous.

“I lied to him of course. I mean I hope that’s what you wanted. I said that you didn’t change at all.” He said and I nodded. “Sauli it’s getting out of hand, don’t you think?”

“I know.” I said and looked down. “But what am I supposed to do?”

“Talk to them. I mean I know it’s not really easy, but you won’t help it if you’re ignoring it. Tell them that you won’t do what they expect from you. Just be honest. Tell them that they have to accept you or… I don’t know… they will lose you.” He said but it sounded like a question.

“Yeah, you’re right. I don’t want to live this life like that anymore. I’m just building more lies again.” I took a deep breath. “Did my father mention the problem?”

“He didn’t. He just called it ‘Family problems’ and that’s it. He didn’t say anything about your sexuality.”

I nodded again. That’s good. I mean Adam obviously knew it anyway but if my dad would have spoken to anyone else who probably wouldn’t know it…it would have been so awkward for me. I’m not ashamed of it, it’s just that not everyone necessarily has to know it. Even though I’m sure everyone does already since it’s the main reason why I have no friends in school. But if there was a confirmation I think it would be worse.

“Adam, my dad said you helped him opening his eyes, what exactly did he mean?” I asked when I remembered the sentences they said before my father left.

“I told him to give you the time you need. Since I ‘didn’t know what he was talking about’, at least I  tried to act like that, I couldn’t really say anything. I tried to act as dumb as possible about that…” He giggled. “…but yeah I told him that you would talk to them if you were ready. And that they should stop trying for now, since it won’t help anyway.”

“Perfect.” I nodded. Thanks god for this amazing human being in front of me. My parents would hopefully listen to what he said and leave me alone for now so I could make up my mind about stuff I could tell them as soon as I’m ready. Whenever that will be.

A/N: Yeah I said it's pretty short. I promise the next few chapters are going to be a lot longer. I have everything planned out already but nothing is written yet. Since I have spring break now I have a lot time, so I will write as much as possible :) And a little spoiler: There will be a plot twist. x) Hope you enjoyed. Likes and comments are what I like to see...<3

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