In the summer of 2020, following a very difficult spring 2020, like most people I was severely struggling with my mental health. I was facing burnout at work while working for a healthcare improvement company, I was facing trouble with the racial disparity in the world, I was facing family going through divorce, and I was facing unknown isolation which bubbled up deeply hidden feelings of abandonment.
All of this led to my breakdown that led to a breakthrough. As I cried out night after night to God and the Holy Spirit to revive me, comfort me, empower me, and rescue me - God did just that; He rescued me. Actually, I later learned that He's been chasing me for years, and I didn't quite realize it and hadn't really been listening to Him. But, God didn't give up. God officially saved me on June 25, 2020 and in a few weeks following that, in the middle of the night, God laid on my heart to write a book called Eyes Wide Open.
I haven't stopped writing since that night.
And, in the following weeks and months, that's exactly what God did; He opened my eyes to the world around me. I experienced a spiritual awakening like I never ever have in my lifetime. I saw miracles all around me as God revealed that He was walking ahead of me. In fact, one of the moments that God revealed to me, which I still stand in awe of is the fact that I had collaged (I quite enjoy art with cutting and pasting), a two-page spread in my visual journal eight months before my salvation that unbelievably said, "Eyes Wide Open." In fact, the two-page spread, that I had collaged eight months before being saved, perfectly depicted what I was walking through in the mist of my "breakdown for a breakthrough." I had previously collaged sunflowers which became highly symbolic during my spiritual awakening; I had the word joy collaged; I had pictures of a child, and it said "Jesus is here. He's really here!"There's no better visual to explain everything I was experiencing during my breakthrough than this visual that God had me unknowingly create eight months before. I stand in awe of mysteries and miracles like this that God reveals in our lives.
So how could I not obey my Heavenly Father when He called me to write on His behalf, to show the world His glory, to show how faithful God was while I was going through a breakdown that led to such a glorious breakthrough.
I share my story, and reference that I have been rated within the top 3 for delight on Wattpad, so that, if it is God's will, He may use my writings to bring you delight and more importantly, everlasting salvation.
"Open my eyes, that I may behold wondrous things out of your law."
Psalm 119:18 ESV
"For it is by believing in your heart that you are made right with God, and it is by openly declaring your faith that you are saved."
Romans 10:10 NLT
"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."
2 Corinthians 12:9 NIV
"O my son, give me your heart. May your eyes take delight in following my ways."
Proverbs 23:26 NLT (my own emphasis added)
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Eyes Wide OpenSpiritual
In this assortment of writings, the author shares stories about God cutting out the painful parts of her life and pasting in the beautiful in order to create a new story - an artful collage. The author showcases how her eyes were opened to God alwa...