About Eyes Wide Open

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In the summer of 2020, following a very difficult spring 2020, like most people I was severely struggling with my mental health. I was facing burnout at work while working for a healthcare improvement company, I was facing trouble with the racial disparity in the world, I was facing family going through divorce, and I was facing unknown isolation which bubbled up deeply hidden feelings of abandonment.

All of this led to my breakdown that led to a breakthrough. As I cried out night after night to God and the Holy Spirit to revive me, comfort me, empower me, and rescue me - God did just that; He rescued me. Actually, I later learned that He's been chasing me for years, and I didn't quite realize it and hadn't really been listening to Him. But, God didn't give up. God officially saved me on June 25, 2020 and in a few weeks following that, in the middle of the night, God laid on my heart to write a book called Eyes Wide Open.

I haven't stopped writing since that night.

And, in the following weeks and months, that's exactly what God did; He opened my eyes to the world around me. I experienced a spiritual awakening like I never ever have in my lifetime. I saw miracles all around me as God revealed that He was walking ahead of me. In fact, one of the moments that God revealed to me, which I still stand in awe of is the fact that I had collaged (I quite enjoy art with cutting and pasting), a two-page spread in my visual journal eight months before my salvation that unbelievably said, "Eyes Wide Open." In fact, the two-page spread, that I had collaged eight months before being saved, perfectly depicted what I was walking through in the mist of my "breakdown for a breakthrough." I had previously collaged sunflowers which became highly symbolic during my spiritual awakening; I had the word joy collaged; I had pictures of a child, and it said "Jesus is here. He's really here!"There's no better visual to explain everything I was experiencing during my breakthrough than this visual that God had me unknowingly create eight months before. I stand in awe of mysteries and miracles like this that God reveals in our lives.

So how could I not obey my Heavenly Father when He called me to write on His behalf, to show the world His glory, to show how faithful God was while I was going through a breakdown that led to such a glorious breakthrough.

I share my story, and reference that I have been rated within the top 3 for delight on Wattpad, so that, if it is God's will, He may use my writings to bring you delight and more importantly, everlasting salvation.

"Open my eyes, that I may behold wondrous things out of your law

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"Open my eyes, that I may behold wondrous things out of your law."
‭‭Psalm‬ ‭119:18‬ ‭ESV‬‬

"For it is by believing in your heart that you are made right with God, and it is by openly declaring your faith that you are saved."
‭‭Romans‬ ‭10:10‬ ‭NLT‬‬

"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."
‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭12:9‬ ‭NIV‬‬

"O my son, give me your heart. May your eyes take delight in following my ways."
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭23:26‬ ‭NLT‬‬ (my own emphasis added)

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