After I put Brielle to bed, my phone vibrated. I was gonna let it go to voicemail, but I answered when I saw it was Carmen.
Carmen: I heard you're looking for a nanny.
Carmen: well, my cousin, Lupe, is looking for a job. she's definitely qualified, but there's only one problem.
Carmen: she doesn't speak much English, but she wants to work for y'all. she claims she knows you.
That's weird because I don't know anyone named Lupe.
'Cool. When can I meet her?'
'Okay. Thank you so much.'
Carmen: no problem.
I hung up and put my phone back in my pocket. I can honestly say Carmen's call made my night a little less suckish.
I walked out of the nursery and slowly went to the bedroom. Surprisingly & unfortunately, Blake was still up. I decided to just change into pajamas and get into bed. I turned to face the wall, hoping I would fall asleep.
I was starting to think Briana wasn't coming to bed, but she eventually walked in the bedroom. She just changed and got in bed without saying anything to me.
I really fucked up.
"I know, Blake. I'm not mad anymore," she said dryly.
She should know that I know her better than that, so I know she's lying.
"Then can you look at me."
She slowly turned over to face me, but her face showed absolutely no emotion.
"Blake Austin Griffin, I swear if you apologize again, I'm gonna punch you in the throat."
I managed to laugh a little and pulled her closer to me. "I love you, Bri."
I chuckled and shook my head before picking up her hand to kiss it. I noticed her ring was gone, which worried me because she never takes it off.
"Where's your ring?"
She looked up in my face and bit the corner of her lip, "in my shorts pocket."
"What's it doing there."
"I took it off," she said quietly.
She sighed and held her head down, "because I'm just your baby mama..."
Well that stung.
"You downgraded me from your wife to just the baby mama and even though it didn't look like it, that hurt me. Everyone just thinks of me as some hard ass, heartless bitch, but I'm still a person who has feelings. And since you wanted play with my feelings, I decided to take the ring off because I knew it'd hurt you."
I actually teared up a little when she said all that because it made me realize that I'm such an asshole to her. I've done nothing but hurt her throughout this whole relationship, and she's still with me.
After sitting in silence for five minutes, she looked at me and damn near jumped out of her skin when she saw the tears running down my face.
"Why are you crying?!" she asked, grabbing my face, "is it because of me?! Got dammit, that was only supposed to make you upset, not cry. Shit!"
She jumped off the bed, got her ring out of her shorts pocket and put it back on. She then jumped back on the bed, grabbed my face again and kissed me.
"It's back on, see. I'm sorry for being a bitch, just stop crying. I hate seeing you so upset," she frowned, sitting on my lap.
I chuckled at her as she wiped my eyes. She may be kind of a hard ass, but she has a big heart and that's why I love her. So why do I keep fucking up?
"Briana, I'm sor--"
"What did I tell you about apologizing?!"
"Trust me, I need to say this." I took a deep breath, let it out and looked her in the eyes. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for all the shit I've put you through in this relationship. I'm sorry for being a shitty boyfriend and an even shittier husband. I don't know how you put up with my bullshit because you deserve so much better than me. I don't know why you're with me, but I'm glad you are. I love you so much, baby, and I hope you know that."
She smiled at me with tears in her eyes, "of course I know you love me. All I want is for you to respect me and stop pissing me off."
"I can do that," I said against her lips, "I love you."
"I love you more," she said, pecking my lips, "oh and next time you bring a bitch in this house, you better let her know that I'm the boss and to come at me correct, or I will drag her ass to hell and back. I won't --"
I chuckled, then kissed her roughly to shut her up. We stayed up talking for hours until she eventually fell asleep in my arms.
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