"I don't think I should." I said, doubting myself. I didn't want to come off too strong to Sarah and Jenna. Secretly, I just wanted to hear his voice. But, I couldn't stop the nagging feeling in the pit of my stomach from rising up.
We were sitting outside a small café in Toronto and people were staring me because of my dramatics.
"Oh, come one! You have to. I saw the way he looked at you. He'll be really upset if you don't." The nagging feeling was telling me that, perhaps, it was a horrible, sick joke.
"How do you even know that?" I questioned, depressed.
"It was so obvious!" Sarah exclaimed excitedly. She just wanted to see Synyster again.
"Well, he's married isn't he?"
"Ahaha since when has that stopped you?" Sarah smirked. She was right, in the past, it hadn't. But Matt and Val were childhood sweethearts. How could I do that to someone? I wasn't ever going to be a cheater.
"Wait a second... didn't you say that he had no wedding ring on?" Jenna questioned curiously.
"Well, yeah, but he may have just not been wearing it." I retorted in dismay. Secretly, I was contradicting my feelings. I did that quite often. I hid my true feelings and told everyone the opposite. I was afraid that I would be let down, disappointed, humiliated.
"Well, don't you think that he wouldn't do what he did if he didn't have feelings?" Sarah questioned my thoughts. She didn't know that I feared this to be a sick joke.
"And-" she added. "He probably knows how deeply you feel by now."
"What?!" I exclaimed. I suddenly remembered that she had been alone with the band for most of our time there.
"Sarah. What did you say to them?" I demanded to know.
"Well, I told them about how much you loved him." I could tell about how cautious she had said that. On one hand, I could have been excited that he knew that last night was not just a spur-of-the-moment thing. But, on the other, I could just be seen as a crazed fan desperate for any physical contact.
"I don't want to." Secretly, I did. I was scared of rejection.
"Charlotte, if you do not ring him I shall have to do it for you!" Jenna demanded.
"Well, I can't do it here can I?"
Sarah and Jenna exchanged smirks and then nodded in unison.
I picked up my phone dialled his number.
"Oooh, I see you saved his number."
"Shut up" I mouthed as the phone started ringing.
I felt nervous but excited. I didn't know if he would pick up the phone.
When he did I felt excitement rush through my body.
"Hi," I started.
"Oh, hi, Charlotte?"
"Yeah, it's me" I blushed.
"Are you sure that you want to do this to Val?" she asked me before the conversation had even started. I wanted to tell her about what had been going on. I needed to vent to someone.
"There hasn't been a Val and I for a while now." I said sullenly. I wish I hadn't.
"Oh," she replied. I detected a hint of joy in her voice. I thought about last night, what the guys had said to me. I had been eagerly waiting this phone call after what I learned.
"Did you mean what you said?" I detected a fragile tone in her voice. The truth was I did mean everything that I had said and tried to do.
"Of course I did. I'm not trying to use you or screw you around."
She giggled. I imagined that she was blushing.
"Erm, would you like to meet up sometime?"
"Yes! I would love to - but don't you have sound checks shows to perform?"
"No, we're on a four day break. I really want to know more about you."
Again, she giggled. I loved that.
"How about you meet me at my hotel?"
"Sure." She said.
I proceeded to give her directions.
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