This Is More Than Anything

Kabanata 1

Kabanata 1

"Seriously, you're so rude kanina!" I told her. Kakarating lang namin ngayon sa loob ng kotse.

"I told you to wait for me!" She ignored what I said.

"I fell asleep Lily!" I reasoned out.

"How could that possibly when that fucking Micheal was there! Good friend?! Sinong tanga ang maniniwala don?! Plus you should've told me if you have a suitor, I'm your bestfriend!" Hingal na hingal si Lily matapos niyang sabihin 'yon. Iritang irita na ako pero pilit kong pinapakalma ang sarili.

I'm literally so tired from everything! Simula kaninang umaga hanggang ngayon, hindi mawala wala ang iritableng pakiramdam ko.

"Nagkataon lang na nandoon 'yon--!" She didn't let me finish. I wetted my lips in annoyance.

"Nagkataon?! Sa ibang college nag aaral 'yon! When did you met him anyway? Nì hindi mo nga kwinento sa 'kin!" Hindi makapaniwalang sabi niya. Nasapo ko ang noo ko. When will she understand?!

"I just don't get why are you interfering my life this much? I'm not obligated to tell you every thing, especially we don't even have a thing!" I couldn't stop my mouth, I'm really pissed. Simula kanina, ang mga pasimpleng pag disapprove niya sa akin, pansin na pansin ko iyon!

"I'm your bestfriend!" Giit niya pa. I scoffed. Seryoso ba siya? My goodness, make it make sense!

"You're right! And not a freaking mom! Or a freaking girlfriend!" I pointed out. She stiffened. I just hope she understand that what she always do was too much.

Umiling ako. "You're suppose to understand and support me because I'm your bestfriend." I paused to catch my breath.

"Siguro next time nalang tayo mag usap. We'll just hurt each other if we continue this." I said calmly without looking at her.

"Sorry please, I just--I can't contain myself, I see you as my younger sister." She said worriedly. Umiling ako. It's better if we don't see each other for awhile. This is seriously draining me for the past months.

Other people won't understand. She's literally owning the title of a super super strict parent who doesn't trust her child. Fuck, how am I suppose to grow up if she keep manipulating my life?

We were silent the whole time. Nagsalita nalang ako nang makarating kami sa tapat ng tinitirhan kong apartment.

"'Wag mo na muna akong daanan sa apartment ko." I said and sighed. Sa gilid ng mata ko ay nakita kong napalingon siya sa 'kin.

"What? Ihahatid kita..." Nag aalangan na sabi niya.

"No Lily, let's just keep each other away for now. I hope you understand that I'm so upset and drained. Hindi ko na kakayanin pa ang mga susunod na away natin." Paliwanag ko saka lumabas na nang sasakyan. Nagpasalamat nalang ako dahil hindi na niya ako hinabol.

Honestly, naghalo halo na ang dahilan kung bakit ayaw ko makipagkita sa kaniya. Una sa lahat, we're both busy and stressed about our own activities. Pangalawa, she's blaming and gaslighting me every fucking time. Third, I'm upset that everyone's using me to get closer to her. I don't have real friends because they only use me as their key card to Lily.

I sighed. A ugly morena, not so talented and just a hardworking girl who has a beautiful and talented bestfriend struggles check.

Sinarado ko ang bintana ng humampas ang simoy ng hangin. Napayakap ako sa sarili dulot ng malamig na hangin. Ber Months na kasi kaya malamig pero katulad ng nakasanayan ay naghalf bath pa rin ako. It helps me refresh my mind from everything.