42// Tori

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Victoria Winters it's time to wake-up sweetheart.... Mom's voice.

Come on baby girl, fight to come back to us....dad's voice.

Get your ass up girly, you are a badass that won't let a dipshit psycho take you down....that's definitely Grace. If I could laugh I would.

Wake up Tori please I'm sorry for everything...Ugh Mia even in a coma she has to bother me.

Listen babe your family now, your basically my sister. We need you; Derek needs you; Daisy needs you, wake up.... Deacon he's home.

Come back to me baby....I love you....I know that voice anywhere, my Derek.

Beep. Beep. Beep.

Ugh that sound is annoying and it's too bright, flicking my eyes a few times. Until they are in focus again, looking around my surroundings...where I am?

Then like a flash through my eyes, everything comes back to me.

Marcus killing officer's Murphy.

Talking my way out of the room.

Seeing Derek.

The pain through my body.

Derek killing Marcus.

Us falling to the ground.

The cold around me.

Derek's fear.

And the dream with Nan.

Blinking and looked around the hospital room, stopping my eyes when they fall on Derek sleeping awkwardly in one the chairs, trying to master a smile on my lips I see him, he looks so adorable, I've missed him.

Feeling a weight in one of my hands, looking down to see Derek's hand in mine. How he manged to fall a sleep still refusing to let go of my hand is beyond me but melts my heart all the same.

Moving my hand slightly to get comfortable, that movement jolts Derek away and his eyes shoot to mine.

"Your awake" narrowing my eyes on him sadly taking in everything about him.

The dark circles around his eyes, the tiredness in his eyes, he's a mess but he's my mess and I don't ever want that to change.

"Water..." I croaked out, my mouth dry like sandpaper.

Derek moves towards the tray in-front of us and grabs a plastic cup with a straw, bringing it to my lips.

Taking a small sip and then nodded my head, telling him I was done.

I watched as he places the cup back down and them moves closer to me, kissing me on the forehead gently.

"Let me go and get a doctor" he mumbles, going to move away from me, but I stop him. I just need this moment with him.

"Just stay for a minute please....just a moment of me and you'

Derek nods his head and his gaze lingers on me, so many emotions on his face and in his eyes.

"Baby I'm sorry" He whispers, barely hearing him as I notice the tears in his eyes.

"How long have I been here?"  He looks at me sadly.

"Just over a week"

"Please tell me you haven't been here the whole time?" I asked sadly.

"Mostly, until the other day when Deacon and Jack dragged me home. After a shower, some sleep and spending a few hours with Daisy. I came back, I wanted to be here when you woke up" He explained, nodding my head and opened my mouth to tell him that I want to see Daisy, and then I remember his words from a minute ago about him being sorry.

"Wait... what do you have to be sorry for" I ask him, still coming around.

He takes his hand back in my mine, rubbing circles up and down my thumb.

"I didn't protect you like I promised that I would"

"Derek...." I sighed, I hate that he's been waiting here blaming himself for what happened to me, it's not his fault, he wasn't the one who kidnapped me and then shot me, he came for me, he fought to find me.

He is the reason why I fought so hard, I fought to get back to him and his love.

"Enough please...you are not to blame for any of this. The only person who is responsible for putting me in this bed, is in the morgue. Marcus was unstable and psychopath with no remorse for his actions" I firmly say to him, hoping that he lets go of the guilt he is carrying.

"But-;" Cutting him off with a look before he could even try to argue with me.

"No buts he isn't worth any more of our thoughts or controlling our lives he's gone....it's over now" I replied.

I don't want to keep thinking off Marcus and I know that it's going to take some time for me to heal, and to come to peace with everything that happened to me because of him.

But I lived in fear for weeks because of him and his sick fantasy that I belonged to him, and I refuses to let him have anymore rule over my life.

I won't let him; he can't hurt me anymore and I won't give him the satisfaction of letting him still control me or have me living in fear anymore.

I want to start a life with Derek and with Daisy, I want to live and love them with everything that I have, I can't do that if I let the nightmares of Marcus take over.

It's done and I survived.

"I love you....I should have told you sooner. But I do Tori, I love you with every inch of my heart and soul, and with every breath I take" He announced.

Feeling the tears in my own eyes as I stare at him, the man that holds my heart.

"I love you too, I love you more then life. I fought to stay with you, I want that life with you Derek, so much because you are the other half of my soul, and I didn't even know that was possible until I met you" I replied with emotion.

Derek keeps his gaze locked on me for a moment, smiles and then leans over and kisses me.

And in that moment, with that one kiss that is full of so many emotions between us. I know that me and him, we can survive anything, as long as we're together.


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