chapter 4

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Her small hand was in mine and I felt it almost as much as I had felt the kiss. She's so perfect. I'm so glad I came to find her! She is my world now and I will spend everything I can on her. My heart's jumping and my eyes won't stay off of her. Her outfit was hot, her jeans showing off her legs, her heels making her taller but still small. She has straightened her hair even though it is already rather straight and put make up on. She looks Devine but she would look Devine with none of that on as well, maybe even better.... stop. I really need to stop or I'm sure I'll scare her away. We walk up to the doors and I push one open with my free hand.

"Thank you," her voice sings in my ears every time I hear it. The first time I heard it on Earth i almost kissed her instantly. I don't think she would have appreciated that.

When I came to meet her I thought it was going to be hard work, spending time to get to know each other (well for her to get to know me) and maybe a few clubs after school with her. But it was nothing like that, she bonded with me since I arrived.

"Hello and good evening. Welcome to Crofters, have you booked a table?" The waitress asked, her eyes locked on mine. Courtney shifted, uneasily onto her other foot so I squeezed her hand to reassure her.

"Yes, under Jax?"

"Mhm yes I have it here. You are at table 8, please enjoy." I pulled Courtney over to the table and pulled out her chair. She sat and I sat opposite her but our hands interlaced across the table.

"You are so beautiful," her checks were almost covered by make-up but I could still see the flush of pink as she looked at me.

"Thank you." I pulled her hands to my lips and kissed them.

"The pleasure is all mine," she was almost irresistible when she acted shy, I wanted to show her she didn't need to be shy.

"Jax, that, that kiss outside, it was amazing," why was she telling me this? I knew that already.

"I know, I'm surprised I kept from kissing you for so long though."

"What do you mean?" She tilted her head like she always did when she was confused, I loved it.

"Ever since I first saw you I wanted to do that, I just didn't want to rush you."

"I, I didn't realize. I thought you just wanted to be friends." I shook my head.

"I think we can be more but if you want that it's fine I will understand..." I could feel my heart breaking as I said the words. She shook her head quickly,

"That's not what I want at all! I want this... I want us," my relief must have been clear. I opened my mouth to reply but the waitress came over to collect our orders.

"Good evening, have you decided what you would like to order?" She again looked only at me and I felt slightly angry.

"I'll have whatever this beautiful lady is having," I squeezed Courtney's hand that was still laced with mine and looked into her eyes. The waitress turned to Courtney at last.

"Umm, is there a special on at all?" Courtney asked going slightly pink again.

"We have two specials on today, the roast beef and spicy curry." How dare she use the cheek!

"No that's wrong there is also a romantic meal for two, is there not?" This time the waitress flashed pink.

"Oh, umm yes sir, that also. "

"That sounds lovely, could we have that please?" Courtney seemed to gain confidence and looked the waitress right in the eye as she said it.

"what drinks would you like?"

"Coke please,"

"Make that two cokes," I didn't take my eyes off of Courtney as I said that.

"Will that be all?"

"That is all, yes." I dismissed her and hoped she understood my double meaning.

"She was... pleasant," I was amazed to hear the doubt in her voice. Did she really think I was interested in another girl?

"Courtney? Are you ok?" She looked away.

"Yes I'm fine," worry started to creep up on me.

"Darling what's wrong?"

"I'm not good enough for this... for you." I was shocked frozen for a minute. This girl, the girl that I was made for, thought she wasn't good enough for me?!

"I don't want any one but you. You think I was interested in her? I just wished she would go away so I could have you to myself again. Don't ever doubt that you are the only girl for me." I looked into her eyes, those beautiful golden eyes. Well that's what I see them as. As her guardian angel there are only a few things that Mark her out to me that she is my alfina.

Well so yeah I'm an angel and I'm Courtneys angel...literally. I shouldn't even be with her, it is forbidden and well I kind of disobeyed God... I know, I know not good. But love is something I cannot control and moments like this, when I can just stare at her reminds me why I came. I wanted to know her as her and not from the sky.

So basically I knew everything - yes I mean everything about Courtney. I keep forgetting that she knows nearly nothing about me, that I have to go slow and let her get used to me. It was only fair.

"I think I might be falling in love with you." My heart skipped a beat, I can't believe she just said that. did she mean it? Could she possible love me? Her cheeks had turned slightly turned red and she was avoiding my eyes. "I'm gonna go to the toilet." she got up and walked off, I didn't take my eyes off of her till she was out of sight. I sighed quietly. I didn't reply. I love her of course I did but it was messing it up. I couldn't just be with her because that will seem like I'm going too fast and yet I couldn't seem to make myself slow down with her.

"Excuse me?" I heard the smooth voice behind me and when I looked into the dark eyes that it belonged to. It was the waitress again. She wasn't the girl I wanted.

"Yes?" I said it harsher than I meant it to be but she didn't look offended.

"Are you ok?" God she was annoying. that's when she did something that shocked me still. she lent into me and pushed her lips against mine, it was not like Courtney she was pushing hard and her lips were not soft and gentle like the girls I loved, what was I doing?! I stood up and shoved her away.

"What are you doing?! I'm on a date! And I love her thank you very much." Her eyes darted over my shoulder and I turned to see a very shocked courtney. "courtney I..." she walked straight passed me and up to the waitress.

"He's mine," with that she slapped her across the face. I couldn't help but smile.

The girls hand flew to her cheek and she glared at Courtney. That's when she noticed a man dressed in a black suit walking over to us. He was looking directly at Courtney and the girl with a concerned look on his face, but beneath that was a small trace of anger.

"Is there a problem here?" The waitress looked suddenly terrified.

"Yes there is. I do not appreciate people kissing me suddenly and especially those that are serving me." I said the words without looking at the girl but I saw her flinch at them. The man's face turned to the girl

"Danielle is this true?" He asked angrily. The girl looked at the floor and crossed his arms. The man sighed.

"That is the last straw. I told you if you got in trouble again you wouldn't be working here very long. I am a man of my word and am asking you to leave." Danielle looked helplessly at him with her mouth open. He turned back to us and smiled apologetically. "I am very sorry for this and am sure it will not happen again. Please enjoy your meal."

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