unbroken (unexpected series)

Chapter 45.5

A/N: NOT EDITED.
Thank you for the response last chapter, it was unbelievable. I read each and every single comment and I even chose a few questions from last chapter to answer, I think it's easier to do it that way... I don't want you guys thinking that I'm not answering your questions so yeah... at the end a few are answered.

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Chapter 45.5 – Kieran POV

        I couldn’t remember life before I was taken, not very much of it and to be perfectly honest, I think what I could ‘remember’ were more so the two years since I’ve been free and on the run with Carla, Tony, Connor, Dominic, Tera and them telling me their memories. It was hard to sit and think of what was true or not, what I remembered or what I was told.

        I also didn’t like thinking about anything that had to do with my life before coming to the island, I loathed closing my eyes and having that fear of being hunted, hurt and eventually captured. In wolf form, it sometimes felt as though all the things that happened to me were done to someone else. Since Oakley had come onto the island, Nyx had been pushing for me to make new memories, sure the old ones haunted me and could paralyze me at times, you can make positive new memories… with Oakley, with other people, you just have to try Kieran, he said.

        So here I was. After waking up alone and being disappointed that Oakley wasn’t in the room, I showered leaving the hospital room and going to the room Chelsea had given me waiting until I knew Oakley would be back for her movie night.

        I had contemplated not going, deciding that she wouldn’t want me around while she was with Kiley and Tera, then why would she invite you? Why would Tera include you if they didn’t want you to join them? Again Nyx pointed out. I know he wanted to be around his mate, but I just couldn’t work it out for myself, why Oakley or anyone for that matter would want me around them? Didn’t they know how bad I was? In the – in that place, I was always kept alone for those exact reasons.

        Oakley though, she didn’t know.

        Inside I knew how selfish I was being, wanting her around me when I was no good, only to find out that she’s my mate.

        I had to tell her. Even if you tell her she won’t abandon you Kieran, Nyx murmured, but he didn’t know what he was talking about.

        I would tell her, that would only be fair.

        Only I was selfish. I enjoyed spending time with her, it didn’t matter if we were doing anything, and even just sitting in silence was wonderful. Yet what I really enjoyed was the moments I made her smile, it felt good to know that I was doing that… I liked watching her when she spoke to other people, trying to see if she was any different, in the way she saw me.

        There was none. No judgment. Not when she was looking at me, or when she was speaking to anyone else. She wasn’t ashamed to hold my hand in front of her uncle; she didn’t let go or pull away, nothing. In fact, she held on tighter, as if sensing that I would want to pull away.

        Heading down to the kitchen for something to drink, I heard speaking, I knew it was Jack, I hadn’t memorized every ones voice or anything but he had a distinctive low tone.