I'm Sorry

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It used to be Liam and Zayn during high school but it became LiamandZayn after a while. Liam loved Zayn more then himself, he’d be lost without him. All the memories he remembers. Classic.

Remember the day I borrowed your brand new car and dented it? I thought you’d kill me, but you didn’t.

“Zayn can I borrow the car?” Liam asked. “F-For what?” Zayn asked. It was a brand new car, bought only yesterday and Zayn only used it once. “To go to my mum’s house.” Liam said. “Do you want me to drive you?” Zayn asked catious. “No its ok. I’ll take care of it babe.” Liam smiled. “I trust you.” Zayn chuckled handing the keys to Liam. It all happened so fast. In a blink. Liam was just driving when it all went black. He awoke on the sidewalk covered in blood, but he didnt care. All he cared about Zayn’s wreck of a car. It looked like it belonged in the junk yard. People were surrounding him and an ambulance was their. “Sir, are you alright?” A woman asked. “Yes i’m fine.” Liam replied but it was a lie. Zayn would kill him. Literally dump him and leave him there to die. “We called your emergency contact. Zayn. He’ll be here soon.” She said. Liam looked around to see another car, the front destroyed and a guy being lifted into the ambulance  Oh so a car crashed him. Great! He’s going to die. Liam began sobbing like crazy, falling to his knees. A taxi stopped in front of the scene and Zayn ran out, looking for a specific boy. He spotted Liam and ran to him quickly gathering him in his arms. “Oh my god. Thank god your ok.” Zayn sobbed as well. Tears clearing his vision. “I… Your car. I’m so sorry.” Liam said against Zayn’s chest. Zayn looked at his ‘new’ car and looked back to Liam. “I dont care about a stupid car. There’s millions. There’s only one Liam, and he’s mine.” Zayn said kissing Liam on the forehead. 

And remember when I dragged you to the beach, and you said it would rain, and it did? I thought you’d say “I told you so.” But you didnt.

“Baby we cant go.” Zayn argued. “But we planned this.” Liam pouted. “It’s going to rain.” Zayn told. “No it’s not. Look how sunny it is, please.” Liam begged. Zayn chuckled but nodded anyways. They got to the beach and spent 2 hours playing around in the water. “See I told you it wasnt going to rain.” Liam giggled in Zayn’s arms and then, like that, it was pouring. They ran all the way to the car. But Zayn stopped him before he could get in. Here it comes, Liam thought, He’s going to say ‘I told you so.’ “I’ve always wanted a kiss in the rain.” Zayn said pulling Liam in for that kiss, in the rain. And that was special.

Do you remember the time I flirted with all those guys to make you jealous, and you were? I thought you’d leave, but you didnt.

“One minute babe.” Zayn said heading to the locker room to change out of football uniform. Liam sat on the bleachers waiting until 5 other football guys surrounded him on the bleachers. “Hey there.” One purred. Smirking to himself Liam played along. “Hi.” Liam flirted. “Your really fit, ever think of joining football?” Another said. “Maybe. I’m not a sporty guy.” Liam said. “Are you sure? Look at those abs?” Another one said lifting up Liam’s shirt to check out his abs and Liam thought it went too far. He looked up and Zayn was walking towards him, frowning. He reached there and growled. He punched the guy, who was lifting up his shirt, in the face and looked at the other 4. “Back away.” He roared taking Liam’s hand and walking away. Liam looked down as they walked to the car. “I’m sorry.” Liam whispered. “It’s ok. I love you forever.” Zayn smiled. “You won’t leave me?” Liam asked. “No. Just gonna fuck you extra rough tonight.” he winked.

Do you remember the time I spilled strawberry pie all over your car rug? I thought you’d hit me, but you didn’t.

“Ok hold this. I’ll be right back.” Zayn said handing Liam a plate with his favorite strawberry pie as he went to buy some milk. They have just gotten back from his sisters. Liam looked at the pie and decided to try some. He went to go dip his finger in the cream when a honk from another car set off and the plate flipped in the air falling to the car floor. Liam looked scared, terrified Zayn would hurt him or even worse, leave him. Zayn came back and looked at the floor where the pie was splattered. Liam flinched away. “Are you ok?” Zayn asked looking up at Liam. “Y-I dropped it.” Liam stuttered. “And? It’s just pie.” Zayn laughed. “I promise I’ll make you another.” Liam said. “Or I could go buy one.” Zayn said kissing Liam and going back into the store.

And remember I forgot to tell you the dance was formal and you showed up in jeans? I thought you’d drop me, but you didnt.

“So I’ll pick you up at 8?” Zayn asked through the phone. “Yep see ya then.” Liam said hanging up and changing into his tuxedo. He combed his hair and styled it which took a majority of his time and it was 7:50 when he finished. He sat on his porch swing waiting for the familiar car to drive up. Wait. Had he forgotten to tell Zayn it was a formal dance? Oh my god. He saw it, the car. Liam blushed. “Are you wearing a tux?” Zayn asked rolling down the window. “I. Forgot to tell you its formal.” Liam replied. Zayn just stared at him. “So? I cant show up in jeans and a tee?” Zayn asked, and amused emotion dancing in his Hazel eyes. “Well, yeah but. You dont care?” Liam asked. “Baby I dont care if we had to wear clown suits, I’d go in a dress any day.” Zayn said and Liam chuckled. That was a special night.

Yes, there were a lot of things. But you put up with me, and love me, and protected me.

There were lots of things I wanted to make up to you when you returned from Iraq.

After graduating from college. Liam was upset. He always knew Zayn wanted to go join the army. Its what he trained for. What he wanted to do. So Liam let him. They kissed good bye and he let the love of his life get on that bus. 4 months later Liam received a letter. The envelope looked strange. White and dirty. He opened it and read:

Dear Li,

Baby be strong. Ok? I love you, forever and always. You are my everything. I remember all the things you did, thinking I would leave you but no. That would never happen. Even after eternity  Never. I love you to pieces  without you i’m nothing.

But, they want me to set a bomb at the camp. There wont be enough time for me to escape. I’m sorry. Not for doing this because it’s always what I wanted to do. Give my life for people. I’m sorry for doing this to you. Sorry for leaving you. Sorry for the 4 months you sent me letters and were in pain. Sorry I made you miserable. Sorry i couldnt be there for you now. Sorry i couldnt kiss you or make you laugh. Sorry for everything I did. 

I love you. Move on. Don’t and I mean it Liam don’t do anything drastic. I’m watching over you. I. Love. You. Babe.

Love, Zayn

But you didnt.

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