"How's everyone holding up?" She asked holding the door open for us to go through. Shaking my head I pulled my bottom lip between my teeth "They're falling apart" I croaked "If Tommy doesn't pull through this there's going to be bodies everywhere".
"How are you holding up?" She asked
Sliding down the wall I was leaning on I couldn't stop the tears "It's never going to stop Ally. If it wasn't Tommy it would have been someone else. Maybe next time it'll be me" I sobbed
"Hey" she whispered sitting down beside me "Everything will be alright, Tommy will pull through this. We just need to think positive". Wrapping her arm around me she hugged me closer to her.
Once the flood gates had opened I couldn't seem to stop them. All the anger, all the hurt that I had built up inside had seeped it's way through. "Ava what's really going on?" She asked pulling back so she could look at me. Wiping away my tears I swallowed the lump in my throat. "I just-.."
"What's the update?"
Hearing his voice made me want to cry more. Why did he have to hurt me? I didn't do anything to him. I didn't deserve to feel like a cheap biker whore. Turning my head I kept my focus on the floor.
"Nothings changed since the last time you asked Blaze. I'll keep you updated if something does". Ally replied pushing herself to her feet. "I'll give you two a minute".
No don't leave me with him.
I didn't want to be alone with him. I didn't want to speak to him, I wanted to be as far away from him as possible but I couldn't move. Didn't have the energy to get to my feet. I felt drained and I had only been here for half an hour.
"How you holding up?" He asked taking a step towards me only to stop when I held my hand up. "I've told you time and time again to stay away from me. I'm not going to argue with you but please just listen to me and leave me alone".
"I'm not going to leave you on your own when your upset" He snapped
Laughing sarcastically I wiped at my now sore eyes. His mood changes more times than the weather does. Deciding not to argue I got to my feet. "Just because you-.."
"Blaze, baby I just heard about Tommy. Are you alright?".
Great just fucking great. Feeling my eyes fall into slits I watched as slutty pants skipped her way over slipping her arms around his waist. Blaze never once took his eyes off mine. Shaking my head I rolled my eyes before side stepping around them.
"Get the fuck off me Kelsey" I heard him growl.
Once in the comfort of my office I fished my out my phone from the drawer. 15 missed calls, 7 voice mails and 22 texts. Holy shitballs. Taking out the card from my pocket I added Nate to my contact list. Opening up a new message my fingers hovered over the letters.
'I should have took your offer'
Hitting send I slide it into the front pocket of my jeans. If I had decided to go with Nate I wouldn't know anything about what happened. Why did being with him right now sound good? Having nothing to worry about having no guilt. Why did I feel guilty? I couldn't have stopped Tommy from being shot. Feeling the vibrations from my pocket I felt the butterflies flutter in my stomach.
'Shitty day? :) I'm just back from the gym. Ready to take a dip in the pool ;)'
'I hate you right now :('
Chucking my phone onto my desk I lay back in my chair and closed my eyes. What would my life had been like if I hadn't wanted to meet my dad? It wouldn't be as bloody complicated as it is right now that's for sure. My mom wouldn't be pregnant and I would never have met Blaze. But then you wouldn't have met Nate!! But I wouldn't have to look over my shoulder every five minutes.
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Ava Mendez.. Smart, sweet and one of the most loyal girls you will ever meet. After just having graduated from medical school becoming a qualified doctor Ava was looking for a job. Living at home with her mom 23 year old Ava was bored. All her life...