I stared at Andy's wrists teary eyed. ''Why Andy?'' I asked, almost in a whisper. He just kept his head down, staring at the cuts. I rolled my eyes and lifted his head up by his chin. ''Why Andy?'' I repeated. He still wouldn't reply, he just let out a quiet sniff. I sighed and kissed his wrist gently. ''I don't want you doing this again Andy, do you hear me?'' I asked sternly. He nodded his head slowly, keeping his eyes locked on mine.
I helped him stand up and he directed me to his bedroom where I helped him into bed. My knees cracked as I leant down beside the bed. ''Andy, sweetie, why did you do it?'' I asked again, hoping for a reply. He bit his lip and shook his head.
''I... I don't know Carolyn. I've been really stressed out lately, by everything. You rejecting me just kinda set me off I guess,'' he said, biting his lip harder. I put my head down, sighing deeply. It was my fucking fault. I made him do it. Andy self harmed and could have died because of me. I'm an idiot. I looked up at him again and gave a weak smile, he smiled back. Before I could make another move I was being dragged on top of him, as he laughed playfully.
''Andy! What the hell are you doing?'' I asked while giggling, as he lay me on the bed beside him. He just lay there, staring at me with a small smile playing on his lips. I didn't really know what he was doing so I stared back, with a confused look on my face.
''I umm... I don't wanna sleep alone'' he muttered admittedly, gently blushing. I could feel a little bit of a blush rising on my cheeks so I looked down, biting my lip.
''Okay Andy, I'll stay here with you,'' I replied eventually, smiling. A larger smile plastered on his face, showing his perfect teeth.
''Thank you, Carolyn,'' he replied, running his fingers gently down my back. I ''mmm'd'' in pleasure, closing my eyes. I heart him snicker a little, as he continued running them up and down. He didn't know that my back was my sensitive place. For most people, having their back rubbed would be relaxing... for me? It's a huge turn on. I kept my head down, trying not to make it too obvious that I was turned on.
I heard Andy snicker again and opened my eyes, looking up to him.
''What?'' I asked, raising an eyebrow.
''I just had a near death experience and we're lying in bed while I turn you on,'' he grinned as he spoke. My eyes widened and my cheeks burned. I kept my head down, thinking of something to change the subject. Nothing. I could think of absolutely nothing. He started running his fingers up and down my back a little harder and I ''mmm'd'' again. Damnit, Carolyn. No wonder he can tell. Then, I had an idea. The cuts. We can talk about the cuts! I know it's horrible, but it'll get my mind off of- I interupted my own train of thought by letting out a moan, as Andy scratched my back.
''A-Andy!'' I moaned again, as he dug his nails harder. ''Andy, no. I don't wanna do that. I wanna talk about these,'' I said, lifting his wrists. A frown plastered his face as he pulled his other hand from my back. He sighed.
''Fine,'' he mumbled.
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Guys, I'm so sorry for slow updates, but I have no motivation! I can't keep concentration and I'm pretty sure no one is reading this:c
But yeah, here's another short and shit chapter c: xo
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FanfictionCarolyn had an abusive childhood and grew up constantly being bullied, her only happiness was in horse riding. Could one lesson change her life forever? Find out as she meets her idol and her life changes dramatically!