The Downcast of Today

Chapter Three

Third Person POV:

Ranboo and Tubbo have been doing the same thing each morning. Ranboo only had done the same he had done on Thursday once, and he was getting his memories back with Tubbos help. They were planning to meetup tomorrow. Tubbo completely learned enderian, and things were going somewhat ok.

The only downside? Ranboo had been doing worse to himself, it was the only thing to make the voice go away. They would still stream, and Ranboo could put his act on like normal, however off stream, he was a whole different person. He would look through his book to be reminded of so many things

His wrists were littered with scars, and he had stopped eating as much. His voice was disappearing, and he still had a bad memory, but it wasn't as bad when he did this. Ranboo thought he must have been doing something right. Panic attacks became normal, crying stopped hurting, he didn't feel the burning anymore.

Ranboo just felt numb most times. Of course when he talked with his friends it got better, but that was only when he talked to them. He knew he had to hide his sadness, his book and the voice said so. If he did not the voice would yell at him, he tried bringing it up with Tubbo multiple times, but he just couldn't.

Ranboo started looking at his book. He went through the different dates.

8/5/21- ⟟ ☊⍜⎍⌰⎅⋏'⏁ ⏚⍀⟒⏃⏁⊑, ⍜⍀ ⌇⌿⟒⏃☍, ⟟ ⎎⟒⌰⏁ ⌰⟟☍⟒ ⟟ ⍙⏃⌇ ⎅⊬⟟⋏☌, ⟟ ⏁⊑⟟⋏☍ ⟟⏁ ⍙⏃⌇ ☊⏃⌰⌰⟒⎅ ⏃ "⌿⏃⋏⟟☊ ⏃⏁⏁⏃☊☍"

8/6/21- ⟟ ⏁⊑⟟⋏☍ ⟟ ⌇⏁⍜⌿⌿⟒⎅ ⟒⏃⏁⟟⋏☌ ⏃ ⍙⊑⟟⌰⟒ ⏃☌⍜, ⟟ ☊⏃⋏'⏁ ⍀⟒⋔⟒⋔⏚⟒⍀ ⏚⎍⏁ ⟟'⋔ ⋏⍜⏁ ⊑⎍⋏☌⍀⊬, ⟟ ⊑⏃⎐⟒⋏'⏁ ⟒⏃⏁⟒⋏

8/7/21- ⟟'⎐⟒ ⊑⏃⎅ ⋔⎍⌰⏁⟟⌿⌰⟒ ⌿⏃⋏⟟☊ ⏃⏁⏁⏃☊☍⌇, ⌇☊⏃⍀⌇ ⏃⍀⟒ ⌇⏁⏃⍀⏁⟟⋏☌ ⍜⋏ ⋔⊬ ⌰⟒☌⌇, ⟟ ☊⏃⋏'⏁ ⏁⊑⟟⋏☍, ⏁⊑⟒ ⎐⍜⟟☊⟒ ⌇⏃⊬⌇ ⏁⊑⟟⌇ ⟟⌇ ⍀⟟☌⊑⏁. ⏁⎍⏚⏚⍜ ⟟⌇ ☍⟒⟒⌿⟟⋏☌ ⋔⟒ ⌇⏃⋏⟒

8/8/21- 

Ranboo sighed looking at the knife on his night stand, he looked back to his book and wrote. That was all he seemed to remember doing now, just writing, over and over again.

8/8/21- ⋔⏃☍⟒ ⌇⎍⍀⟒ ⏁⎍⏚⏚⍜ ⎅⍜⟒⌇⋏'⏁ ⌇⟒⟒, ⋔⟒⟒⏁⎍⌿ ⟟⌇ ⏁⍜⋔⍜⍀⍀⍜⍙

Ranboos thought's got interrupted by his phone. he heard the discord noise and answered the call knowing it's probably just Tubbo. "BIG MAN" He heard from the other line. Ranboo was a bit taken back. "Do you want to be in some vlogs?!" Tommy asked. "Uhhh, sure?" Ranboo said with hints of confusion. "OK BYE-" Tommy said before leaving the call.

Ranboo just laid back down, scrolling through twitter. He decided to make a tweet because he was bored. And so Ranboo simply tweeted "Get ready for tomorrow chat!" without any other context. He smiled slightly thinking about his and Tubbos meetup. Tubbo made Ranboo happy, he felt something around him, he could brighten up Ranboos day simply by saying hello.

A few minutes later, what do you know, a call from Tubbo. Ranboo answered it a put the phone next to him as he was laying down. "Hey Ranboo! Do you have everything packed?? Also make sure you have an alarm for around 5am, your plane leaves at 6am sharp, also I will be calling you!" Tubbo was going on about tomorrow.

"Okok Tubbo, here we can go through the stuff I have packed first, and then we will continue." Ranboo said slightly overwhelmed. "Ok bsoiso s man!" Ranboo laughed silently at Tubbos remark. They continued going through Ranboos luggage, Ranboo told Tubbo his alarms, they figured out exactly when he would get to the UK, and Tubbo even swore to call Ranboo as soon as he woke up.