𝐑𝐞𝐝𝐞𝐦𝐩𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧

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"I'm gonna miss you mama please back to me please." Was all he could rasp out

"Jade." Eliana called walking over to him hugging him tightly

"I'm not going to be stupid and ask if you're alright but I just want you to know that I'm here for you and that I love you." She whispered whilst hugging him

"Thanks." He mumbled hugging her back
"Call me later okay."

"I will." He said before watching her leave
"I'll miss you mama." He whispered before he left

At his house

"I'm always here Jade I know we've been through hell and back but I truly care for you and I'm here." Eliana said with sincere smile

"I know I appreciate you Elle." He said sipping on his drink and she couldn't help but blush

"That mean a lot."

They stared at each other for a good five minutes before he leaned in licking his lips with her and she so badly wanted to push him away but her boys gave in by kissing him back

"We shouldn't do this." She said pulling herself away from him

"Why?" He asked

"Because you're married and this is wrong." She said feeling terrible that she let it get this far

"Man me and that girl ain't married." He denied

Him and shaniyah tied the knot a month or so after she woke up from the medically induced coma she was in after attempting to take her life but as always their happiness didn't last long. With Jades infidelities barley hidden and Shaniyah's insecurities it was a disaster dying to happen

"She's your wife it doesn't matter what you're going through." She said but he just pulled her smaller body into his body, wrapping his arms around her waist.

"I love you." He said and she couldn't help but smile even though she knew this was temporary

"You don't love me Jade." She mumbled
"Don't tell me how I feel." He snapped

"I'm not telling you anything it's your actions." She said and she meant it

"Whatchu mean?"
"You'll continue to choose shaniyah when push comes to shove." She said and she felt her heart break all over again

"Then why do you keep coming back?"

"Because I love you and don't ask why because even I don't understand why and I ask god every day when it'll end."

"I'm that bad you pray to forget a nigga?"
"Jade let's not do this."

"Then what you want from me? Huh?" He asked asked getting annoyed. He just wanted a quick nut and she's doing all this

"I want love! I want commitment, someone who is going to choose me and only me!" She screamed finally having enough

"I want someone who'll love every inch of me and only want me!" She continued

"I want someone who'll give me the same if not more than what I give. I wanted you to be all those things and it hurts Jade it fucking hurts that I'll never be more than a second option to you." She went on and she couldn't help but let the tears fall

"I want love at its rawest form and I wanted that all from you! I prayed, I fought against everyone who spoke down you including my dam brain! I did everything you wanted and more but it was still never enough !" She cried And he went to speak but she started speaking again

"I took care of your sons when she was out somewhere doing drugs! I did that all and I get nothing but disrespect from you and I'm tired I'm so tired Jade. I hope she breaks you to the point where when you closes your eyes you see what she did because that's what I see every dam night because of you!" She shouted