【Beg】(Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint) [Highschool AU]

Chapter 4

(A/N: I have writer's block sooo warning for some cringy unedited stuff.)

'Kim Dokja?'

Our eyes were locked together for a fleeting moment. His pretty eyes gazed at me and from those eyes came a sense of home.

'Pretty.'

He was still as cute as before.

I wonder if he actually knew how good-looking he was? Back then he'd always deny being told that and would always compare himself to me saying he was ugly and could not be compared to me at all.

I didn't think so though.

Because to me, he was and will continue to be the most beautiful person to have graced my eyes.

I've never felt any of these emotions around other people. Only when I was with him would I ever experience the feeling of being in love.

I had always thought I'd get over him over the years but contrary to my expectations, my feelings for him have not faded to this day.

He was the only light that illuminated my dark world.

He was the only one that genuinely treated me like a friend.

I didn't have many friends in the past since I didn't really think there was any point in having any. But he changed my mind, he clearly was able to get along with anybody. I was happy to have made friends with him but at the same time, I was envious.

I wanted to be like him, or atleast that's what I thought.

After I entered highschool, I decided to warm up to some people, not too much though. I didn't want to come off as annoying and to be honest, I really didn't like socializing that much.

Slowly but surely, people started to like me. I became popular, they began calling me stuff like the school prince.

But was that really what I wanted? No.

I thought I wanted to be like him. But was that really what I wanted? I wasn't sure anymore. Did I like the thought of being like him or did I like... him?

After a few days of continuously questioning myself over and over, I was finally able to figure out what my feelings for him were.

But it was already too late, there was no way for me to tell him about my feelings. Since it had already been years since we last saw each other.

I thought that I'd have to live a life keeping my feelings to myself, not having anyone to share them with. Well, I guess fate had other plans. He's right in front of me right now.

His gaze finally left mine, turning his head away in embarrassment from being caught staring.

'Cute...'

A familiar face came into view and put a stop to my train of thoughts and touched my forehead.

"Senior? Do you have a fever? Your face is quite red."

I touched my burning cheeks and quickly snapped out of it, finally waking up from that brief daydream.

"...I'm fine, Jihye." I said in the calmest voice I could muster in this moment.

"Really? Senior seems quite a bit unusual today though." She moved closer as if to inspect what was wrong with me.

"...I am fine. Hurry to the clubroom already. She's probably waiting for you."

I gently pushed her aside and  looked over to where Kim Dokja was standing before and was let down after seeing him not there anymore.

"Senior Sooyoung will probably nag at me again so please come with me!" She grabbed my hand and dragged me along.

'Ah well, I guess I'll just talk to him next time.'

[2 Weeks Later]

"Why isn't he coming to talk to me."

"What?"

"What are you talking about Senior?"

All the members of the Astrology. Club all looked at me curiously. Shit, did I just say that out loud?