I feel numb. My entire body. My feet, my legs, my fingers. Numb.
My heart feels like its stopped.
I've been staring at a blank wall for what seems like hours when in reality it's only been maybe ten minutes.
-15 minutes earlier-
Danny gave me an address, and the keys to his car and told me to meet them at a hotel in Lower Manhattan. We needed to stay in New York for our last show, and this hotel was about a 20 minute drive from where we were.
I only just got here so I decided to make myself some popcorn and watch some TV until the others showed up. I'm not quite sure why they wanted me to come earlier, but Henley said they needed to finish up some stuff that didn't involve me.
As I'm feeding my face I turn on the TV and the first thing on is a news segment of some car chase going on on the bridge.
They do a close up of the car being chased and I freeze.
I drop the bowl of popcorn on the floor and it spills everywhere, but I'm too distracted to care.
I watch in horror as the chase continues and there are multiple thoughts going through my head.
'Why is he being chased?'
'Where are Danny, Henley, and Merritt?'
And then it happens.
His car flips.
"Oh my god." I whisper as my hand flies to my mouth as my vision starts to blur with the tears threatening to fall.
Then because the car flipping isn't enough, it decides to burst into flames.
I see a man who I recognize as Rhodes run over to the car and kneel down next to the driver seat window then get pulled away by another officer just as the car explodes.
Somehow my legs are able to stand up and walk me to mine and Henley's bedroom, but they give out as soon as I take a few steps in and I fall down with my back pressed against my bed.
What am I supposed to do now?
How am I supposed to react?
"Alyssa!" I hear voices shout along with a door close.
"Alyssa!" I hear Danny call again.
From the corner of my eye, I see Henley look into the room.
"I found her!" She yelled to them as she came towards me and dropped to the floor and immediately wrapped her arms around me.
She let's go of me as soon as Danny walks in, he stops and looks at me while my eyes look up and meet his. He takes two steps and, like Henley, drops down to his knees and wraps me in his arms.
At that moment my brain wakes up and I wrap my arms around him as I start sobbing and shaking.
"I'm so sorry." He whispers repeatedly in my ear as he strokes my hair.
What I don't realize as I'm crying my eyes out is the guilty look the three of them share.
I hear Merritt and Henley leave the room to give me some space.
After what feels like a long time of crying on the floor, Danny picks me up and places me on the bed, putting a blanket on me.
"I'll be right outside if you need me." He whispers before kissing the top of my head and walking out.
The last thing I saw was the picture of me and Jack I had taken last night before I drifted off into a restless sleep.
The next morning was hard. I did my usual routine, but I felt empty while doing it.
As soon as I walked out into the living area I saw Danny setting up a camera on a tripod.
"There she is." I heard Merritt say as he walked towards me and engulfed me in a huge hug.
"I'm really sorry sweet heart." He said before kissing my temple and walking back.
Henley walked towards me and gave me a sad smile before hugging me as well.
"What's going on?" I said. My voice sounded raspy and broken from crying so much.
"We need to tell everyone what's going on." Danny said looking up from the camera.
"I know you don't want to talk about this, but we need to let everyone know that the show is still going to happen." He said going back to what he was doing.
I looked at him with wide eyes.
"Are you kidding me?!" I shouted.
They all three looked at me.
"Jack just died!" I yelled. "And all you're thinking about is telling our fans that the show is going to go on?"
I was fuming. They're friend, and the man I loved just died horrifically, and we can't even give him a proper funeral because we don't have a damn body to bury.
"Lys," Danny started "We know how you feel. We feel the same way. We weren't as close to him as you were, but he was like a brother to us. But if we don't do anything, then the people who are after us..the people whose fault this is, they think that they win."
I looked down, knowing that part of him had a point. We needed to let them know that we're not going anywhere.
So that's what we did. We made a video. And we posted it. I barely said anything because I knew that if I talked I would just burst into tears again.
"Now we just have to get ready for tomorrow." Henley said.
"You up for it?" Danny asked me.
I nodded knowing that I had to be. This was my job, and I needed to be focused.
I'M SO SORRY for waiting so long. Tbh I had no idea how to write the next chapter, then I realized, if you're reading this then you've probably seen the movie so you probably don't need a recap of what happens with Jack so I decided to do everything in Alyssa's POV. I'll start working on the next chapter so I can have it up within the next few days maybe.