Morning comes soon much to my dismay.
Today's the day I'm leaving to Paris.
I turn my body towards Jack - careful not to wake up - and I just stare at him. He truly is a gorgeous human being meanwhile I look like donkey.
"Morning beautiful." A sleepy headed Jack calls.
"Shut up I look like hell," I say and turn around to the other side.
"While that may be true," he pauses and brings my back toward his chest, "you're still the most beautiful person I've laid my eyes on." he finishes it off with a kiss.
"Have you looked in a mirror." I mumble quietly - or so I though because he begins to chuckle.
"You're right, I am the most beautiful person ever." I roll my eyes and get out of bed. I walk into the bathroom to brush my teeth and start the shower up.
"Elena wait." I hear Jack call out just as I'm about to get in the shower.
"Do you um- never mind it's stupid." He mumbles.
"Spill it out Gilinsky."
"Do you regret anything that happened last night?" He questions not even bothering to make eye contact with me.
I walk towards him and lift his chin up. "I'm grateful it was you whom got the opportunity to take my virginity." I say and smile.
"Wait I took your virginity? God dammit Elena you should've told me!" He says his voice filled with frustration.
"Why? Because if I would've told you you wouldn't have fucked me huh." I yell back annoyed.
"Is that really what you think of me?" The hurt in is voice is evident. I shrug and I hear him sigh.
"If I would've known I would have made it special and I would've gone slow. I wouldn't have made you please me because I would've wanted to show you how happy you already make me even without sex." The smile on my face is too hard to cover so I let it break free. I give him a simple peck and walk towards the bathroom.
"Oh but I was just playing around I wasn't a virgin Gilinsky." I say with a smirk.
Jack slaps my ass as I'm walking away and I simply flip him off. I wouldn't want our relationship or whatever this is any other way.
However, as I'm showering I realize that I'm leaving New York today - I'm leaving Jack.
This saddens me. Just as we're getting along great and have basically admitted feelings for each other - I have to leave.
I wonder if he can move to Paris with me? Would he give everything up? Is that too selfish of me to ask for?
What are you thinking Elena of course it is! I mentally scold myself. How can I expect him to drop everything and move to a different country with me.
I finish my shower and put on my clothes. I try to waste as much time as I possibly can. I really don't want to.
I step out of the shower and see that Jack has already poured me some cereal. I smile at the gesture and begin eating the food.
"So I was thinking maybe today we could go see a movie - or go to the water park - or I don't know lets just do something fun." Jack says.
"Is going to the airport fun?" I mumble.
"Why would we go to the - oh." The room suddenly gets very quiet and uncomfortable.
"But I thought you weren't going to leave anymore." he expresses.
"What? Did you think that because I let you get in my pants I was going to stay for you?" I exclaim angrily. I didn't mean for it to come out as harsh or rude but I'm just upset. Upset that he would want me to turn down this opportunity and also that I took it.
"No," he says coldly, "have fun in Paris Elena." He starts heading out the door and the regret kicks in.
"Jack I didn't mean it like that."
"You never do." He mumbles.
"What's that supposed to mean?" I ask with a hint of sass in my voice.
"Nothing." He rolls his eyes.
"Are we seriously going to spend our last few minutes like this - arguing over stupid thing?" I ask but I don't get an answer.
"I want to make the most of the time we have now because we won't get it back."
"Jack answer this question,"
"Do you want to make this work - whatever this is?"
He takes several moments before responding.
"Yes." he states although it sounds more like a question.
I should've questioned his answer since the uncertainty in his voice was clearly evident. That should have given me a warning that maybe he didn't want this like I did. However instead ignored it and I wish I hadn't.
Maybe then would it have saved me from the heart ache in the months to come.
Sorry I took forever. I haven't been feeling well.
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