Even The Playing Field | BOOK #1 IN THE PSU SERIES

fifty-three

Until the closet door opened. I closed my eyes and bit my lip. Fuck—I didn't want to see him right now.

"Um, babe hi. What are you doing?" Matti's voice questioned as I continued to keep my eyes closed. I didn't want to see him or talk to him at the moment but Matti always gets what Matti wants.

"Nj," He repeats my name as I sigh. "Are you mad?" He asks as I feel him sit down next to me.

"What happened at the meeting today? Did you get nothing? It's okay if that happened, I promised like I said, I will give you all of the money in the damn world." I winced hearing his words.

God, I was really about to break his heart.

"Can you go get Blake?" I asked, opening my eyes as he looked taken back. "You're upset and you want Blake? Not me, your boyfriend?" He asked, jealous.

I sighed, "I need to talk to you both." I reinstated as he groaned. He slapped his thighs and then stood up, he stormed out of the closet and out of his room.

Mom—I fucking hate you for keeping me alive at the moment.

"What does she want?" I hear Blake's voice from down the hallway. "Would I be at your door if I knew? No—now let's go, you dickwad." Matti says as Blake chuckles, I hear footsteps approach Matti's room.

I stand up and walk out of the closet, shutting the door behind me leaving Mimi in there.

They both appear at the door way as I point for the two men to sit on the bed. In this moment I shouldn't feel powerful, but I was a 5'2 girl ordering around a 6'5 and 6'7 man. They followed suit and sat down on opposite sides.

Blake chuckled at my expression.

"This isn't an intervention is it?" He teases as Matti lets out a throaty laugh. Matti see's my reaction and immediately stops, slapping Blake in the chest. "Quit making jokes, asshole." Matti scolds him.

"Okay little sis, what's the issue?" Blake asks seriously as I swallow. Matti watches my body language as I try to spit it out, but I literally can't.

"You aren't pregnant—right?" Blake asks for confirmation as I nod. Matti's eyes widened, "You're pregnant!" Matti yells as my mouth drops open.

"No! I meant yes as in yes I'm not pregnant!" I exclaim in defense as everyone calms down. Blake chuckles and points at me.

"That's good because I would've killed you." Matti turns to look at him. "You wouldn't have done shit—you little lying mother-" I cut Matti's rant off with a sigh.

"Listen. I need you both to listen and shut up for once please." I plead as they both look at me, wide eyed.

"The meeting went okay, I got the inheritance." I started as they both smiled at me. I continued, "However my dad was in the office and I couldn't leave fast enough because Rob came into the room and then Karla—who I learned was Chloe's mom, last night." I watched as their moods went from happy to shocked to pissed to furious.

"My dad came and cornered you?" Blake asked in shock as I slowly nodded. He sucked in a breath, "About what?" He asked as I exhaled.

"I have to leave you guys alone." I whispered as Matti chuckled. "Come again?" He asked as I sighed.

"I have to leave you both alone because I'm changing you both. Karla is on the NFL board and Blake, you need your dad for your political party affiliation. And then Rob also threatened to get me blacklisted from all of these healthcare facilities." I spoke with remorse as we all sat there in silence.

I heard Mimi scratching at the door of the closet to get out.

But really my feelings were scratching at my heart because deep down I knew it wasn't supposed to be like this.

"Okay so what?" Matti chuckles as I widen my eyeballs at him.

"So what?" I ask in shock as Blake shrugs. "Do you want to go on a break? Do you want to end things?" Matti asked—anger clear in his voice.

I sighed, "Matti I don't want to—" I got cut off by Blake. "But she has to." He finishes for me.

I nod towards him as I try to hold back my tears, I was trying really hard to be mentally strong at this point. I had been through so much with Matti, it's not fair. At all.

"Nj, you don't have to do anything. I'll still get into the NFL." He assures me but I look at him as if he were nuts. "But I wouldn't get into my dream Matti! The dream I've been working so hard on!" I exclaimed as he sighed.

"She is Matti. We might get to do our jobs no matter her decision but she might not be able to make her dreams happen because of the decision." Blake tries to get through Matti's head as Matti grips his head full of hair—trying to process what the hell is actually going on between us.

And I can't help but to let the tears fall because in some way, my dream with Matti was falling apart too.

"You know what—leave. What the hell is it to me? I bought you a house, a star, gave your cat a home, but if you want to leave—then leave!" Matti states looking me in the eyes.

But from what I saw—he wasn't my Matti anymore.

It was the same Matti from a few months ago.

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