𝐓𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐅𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 (𝐓𝐨𝐦 𝐇𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐀𝐔)

•10• 𝐓𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐝...

"He walked into my heart like he was always meant to be there,
Took down my walls,
And lit my soul on fire."

-T.M.

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Your POV

I immediately look up at Tom. He's staring at Haz but he keeps his arms wrapped tightly around me.

"What did I just walk in on?" Haz asks and I can feel heat rising to my cheeks.

"Haz can you just leave, please?" Tom says to him.

"Ok, but I better get a explanation soon." He points to us as he closes the door.

I look back up at Tom, "I totally forgot about him." I slightly laugh.

"Me too," he laughs with me, then looks away for a second, "Darling,"

"What?"

"Will you, be my girlfriend?" He looks back at me as he says the last part.

I smile up at him, "Of course."

His smiles and kisses me softly on the lips, "This is crazy."

"What's crazy?" I ask.

"This, us, I never thought that this would actually happen. Even after how horrible I was to you, you still want to date me. I could never repay you."

I look away from him, "It's not your fault, that's just what we were told when we grew up right? Be mean to the girl you liked?"

"I know just—" he says but I interrupt him.

"Hey, it's okay. That was the past, and you apologized." I put a hand on his face, "it's okay."

Tom smiles at me for a moment before he sighs, "So how are we going to tell Haz huh?"

I let out a quiet laugh, "I don't know, just tell him the truth."

"That we made out at three in the morning then just now decided that we're dating?" Tom raises an eyebrow at me.

"No," I laugh and roll my eyes, "I mean like, tell him that we're dating now."

"I don't know if it's going to be that easy Darling." He laughs.

"Well, we'll just have to try." I say as I step away from Tom.

"Okay." He says and takes a deep breath.

We go out into the kitchen where Haz is patiently sitting at the counter and waiting for us. When he hears our footsteps he lifts his head up from his phone.

"Okay, explanation, now." He says as he turns to us.

"Y/n and I," Tom swallows, "are dating now."

Haz looks between the two of us, "That's it?"

"Yup" I nod my head nervously, scared of what he might say.

A smile slowly appears on his face,  "I knew it."

"What?"

"I knew you two had crushes on each other!" He claps his hands together, "Oh my god! I've been waiting years for this moment. You two have just been too goddamn blind to notice."

A small blush rises to me and Tom's face.

"Well," Tom starts, "I'm glad you're happy about it mate."

"Happy?" Haz laughs, "No, I'm relieved. It was excruciatingly painful to spend all those years watching you guys be in love with each other but not doing a single damn thing about it." He sighs.

I look over at Tom to see his face as red as a tomato. I'm not judging him though, I bet my face looks even redder.

"Okay," Tom says, changing the subject, "Y/n and I are going to eat breakfast and then we are going to go to back to her house."

"M'k" Haz says while turning back to his phone.

"Oh and uh Haz," Tom takes in deep breath, "I was thinking of having Y/n move in with us."

Haz doesn't look up from his phone, "Yeah, I'd be cool with that."

Tom and I smile at each other for a second before Tom walks into the kitchen and starts to make breakfast. I sit down next to Haz at the counter and pull out my phone.

I open Instagram and I see that I have many messages from random people I barely even know.

I open the newest message and I see an attached video.

"Hey guys," I say as I watch the video.

"What?" Haz asks and Tom looks up at me.

"Someone took a video of us last night, at the party."

"Oh you've got to be kidding me." Tom puts a hand over his face.

I look at my other messages and it's all the same video except one.

"Guys look." I turn my phone towards them and play the video.

They're quiet as we hear Addison and Adrian talks shit about me after we left the party.

"Why does she try so hard?" A voice asks that I don't recognize.

"No," Addison replies, "I get where she's coming from. I understand why she's mad. I just don't know how she didn't see this coming, she's just that desperate for a boyfriend I guess. Now she's probably trying to get with Haz and Tom right now."

I look at Tom but he just keeps his eyes on the phone, so does Haz.

"I mean," Adrian starts talking now, "I was totally just trying to get into her pants. When she didn't give me anything I went for Addison. Which I have to say, I liked Addi way more that Y/n anyways."

I put one of my hands over my face as Tom speaks up, "Let's not watch anymore of this."

I turn off the phone and shove it in my pocket. I turn away from Haz and Tom as I blink back tears.

Why do I feel like crying right now?

Adrian told me that last night, why does it still feel like I'm hearing it for the first time?

Why did I even open those messages in the first place?

I'm stupid

I'm stupid

I deserve to feel like this

I deserve this

Why do I feel like I can't breathe anymore?

Why is everything so quiet, yet so loud?

Why can I feel my heartbeat in my throat and in my ears?

I stand up and fast walk to the bathroom. I lock door behind me as I sink down onto the floor.

Tears are steaming down my face as I sob silently.

It hurts, everything hurts. I'm tired....

Tired of Fighting.