Psychosis

Amaya's Heartbreak

I look at her...

Lifeless...

Dead....

The only one who was able to understand this torment I went through.

Seikatsu...your name means life...but, you're not alive...yet, you gave life to me, opened my eyes, to something new...care...love...admiration...

"Seikatsu...this...this can't be true...this must be some kind of sick and twisted dream..."

Like I said, you ARE loneliness

N-no...

You are what makes winter cold

Shut up...

You are the emptiness in everyone's lonely hearts

SHUT UP!

Angel of death...

Death...

That word...that...name...

The taker of life...

I'm...not crazy...

You are heartbreak...

NO! I WANT TO BE NORMAL! I WANT THESE VOICES GONE!

"GET OUT OF MY HEAD!"

I grab both sides of my head, and I sit on my knees.

"I...want to live life...without...these voices..."

Is this all a dream?

I look around.

I heard that you can't feel pain in dreams...only one way to find out...

I get my knife and clean it off.

I watch the blood dance in the currents of the stream.

I take the knife, I cut my left forearm.

I hold in my breath.

Pain...

I start to cry a little.

So this...isn't a dream...this...is real...

I drop my knife and stumble my way back to Seikatsu.

Her face was pale, it made her look so much more beautiful.

Seikatsu...you were my lifeline...the one I love...

I stroke her hair.

I had touched her face.

Cold...

The feeling I feel inside.

I lean against the tree behind us.

I hugged my knees.

"This can't be real...it can't be..."

Why? Why did she die? At least...I've gotten my revenge on the guy that killed her...and at least...I did as I promised before she slipped into her eternal rest forever.

I will always remember her...

One says, 'I would smile but I think I'm 'too cool' to do it...

I started hearing her voice.

The other says, 'hello! I am happy! I will be your sunshine on your cloudy day!'

Sunshine huh...

I stroke her hair once more.

"You are my sunshine...my only sunshine...you make me hap-py when skies are grey...if you only knew dear, how much I love you...don't you give...my sunshine...away..."

I sang while stroking her hair, tears falling down my face.

Seikatsu...you were my only sunshine...I...miss my sunshine...

It then began to rain, I stayed as if it were nothing.

I started to hum the song to myself.

I eventually put myself to sleep.

Heartbreak...loss...sorrow...mourning...my love is gone...my life has vanished...my days are now dark...I miss you Seikatsu...